Every time I go to school I feel this lingering dread. I’m a pretty bad student, I dont really do my homework unless I have to.
I dont know why. I try to do it but i just cant. Ive done my homework on most days of the week but i dont know why when i get home i just cant bring myself to do anything. I dont even remember what I do for most of the day. And because of this i dont really study and my graded are passing (barely) but one of my friends keeps laughing at my grades and i dont really care but its slowly getting to me
and no matter how much i try to study (right now) its no use and i just cant grasp it
i understood all the materials in class but the moment i have to go to an exam or a time limited paper my mindgoes blank and thats why my grades arent the best and i try my hardest but i cant do anything
Lowkey me too.Recently, I feel like I have been trying, and when I do all the past year papers it’s alright but when I go into the exam sometimes my mind just goes blank and I go into a mini panic attack. It is as if my brain quits before I even get a chance to try. It’s so frustrating because I know I am capable of so much more but because of this, my grades are also deteriorating. I don’t want to disappoint my parents and teachers and I am scared that people might see me differently because of my results. I am also too scared to admit to my parents that I need help because I don’t want to be a burden to them and I don’t want my younger siblings thinking I am dumb. It is so hard to study too because it feels like my siblings don’t understand that I have a lot on my plate so they just say that I stay up so late and it isn’t fair. I am scared that they will look down on me if they know that I did badly in a certain subject. I just want to make my parents proud of me like my siblings but I don’t know why but it’s been getting harder. I feel like I am just a burden to them and I don’t know what to do. It’s also partially my fault that I don’t share with them my struggles and my commitments so maybe they feel that I am not trying hard enough and all the things that I currently have came really easily. I think that they think my grades sucks cus I don’t study but that is not true 