Hi…idk this my first time actually asking this here but…i need different opinions from a professional…what if someone like me have flashback of the past endlessly and it keeps happening infront of me it screen and idk like is this even a tramua thing is it bad?..is it bad enough to say like if i don’t go couselling for idk this what will happen to me…?..[not that idw to see a cousellor or psychologist i have try many many times but it keeps happening that right before telling something that I dont share turn into me fearing that they will leave me…and it has happened…and when a new person handle me it repeats the cycle…]
Hi @OG_DinoJT,
Thank you for reaching out and sharing the struggles you’ve been facing! It takes courage to ask this, especially for the first time.
What you’re describing, flashbacks that keep replaying, that could possibly be a form trauma response. You don’t need to have been through something dramatic or “big enough” for it to count. If something hurt you and your mind keeps returning to it uninvited, that’s worth taking seriously.
The pattern you described with counsellors, where you get close to sharing something vulnerable, then pulling back because you’re scared that they’ll leave sounds exhausting and painful. That fear of being abandoned when you’re most vulnerable isn’t irrational. It sounds more like it’s been reinforced by actual experiences.
With all that has been said, I encourage you still to seek support for your mental health and hopefully find a counsellor/therapist/psychologist you can trust and build rapport with.