I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts since I was young. However, I just feel like it has gotten worse. I constantly get tons of unwanted thoughts in the worst timings and no matter what I do I cannot get rid of them. I keep getting these disgusting thoughts that don’t align with my morals and it makes me feel like a weirdo. I know that these thoughts do not reflect my inner values but I cannot help but feel like a terrible person who deserves to die. I already tried multiple methods and to just try and ignore them but I can’t. Sometimes I contemplate hitting my head against the wall just so my brain will be quiet for even a bit. How do I stop getting unwanted thoughts 24/7??
Hi there idkwhatimdoing, thank you for reaching out today!
I hear you on your struggles with those intrusive thoughts; it sounds exhausting to consistently be hammered with such thoughts, for such a long time at that too. Regarding those ‘disgusting’ thoughts that you mentioned that does not align with your morals and makes you feel like a ‘weirdo’, would you be comfortable in sharing some of those thoughts and why it makes you feel that way?
I want to address the concerning thoughts of ‘deserve to die’ and contemplating hitting your head against the wall, are you having thoughts of hurting yourself? Also, how long have you had such thoughts, and have you been able to share with anyone or any professional? You deserve to be heard and supported; I will strongly urge you to reach out to SOS at 1767/9151-1767 or Mindline at 1771/6669-1771 and speak to someone about what you are going through.