Sometimes, especially at night, I just get these spurts of sadness and despair. This has been happening for a long time already and i always think about purpose, death or the continuous flow of society and time . However, it always magically disappears the second day, especially at school and I always find myself asking or hoping that it was never that deep . Does everyone experience this or is it just me?
Thanks for reaching out! Looking at wnat you shared, it does make sense that those feelings hit hardest at night when everything is quiet and you finally have space to think. The way you describe those waves of sadness and big questions about purpose and time shows how heavy it can feel in the moment, even if the next day you find yourself functioning again. That pattern of feeling overwhelmed at night and then feeling more grounded during the day is something many people experience, especially when they are tired or alone with their thoughts.
It is true that nighttime can amplify worries and make everything feel more intense, while daytime routines and social environments can bring you back into yourself. It’s been studied scientifically and I’ve attached the research study here if you want to look it up. (Frontiers | When the biological clock is disordered: circadian rhythm disruption as a core pathophysiological mechanism in anxiety and depression)
Going back to your sharing, I want to say that the fact that the feelings disappear does not erase their impact, and it is okay to want to understand them better.
If these moments are becoming more frequent or more distressing, talking to someone you trust (like a teacher or parent), or a mental health professional could help you explore what is underneath them at your own pace. You deserve support that helps you feel steadier both at night and during the day.
If you need signposting on where to speak to a mental health professional, do let us know too! We’re happy to help 
References:
Yuan J, Zhang J, Yu M and Li L (2026) When the biological clock is disordered: circadian rhythm disruption as a core pathophysiological mechanism in anxiety and depression. Front. Psychiatry 17:1842599. doi: 10.3389/fpsyt.2026.1842599
Hi @understandingbonsai7234 , what you describe is actually more common than you think, and it is worth taking it seriously even if it feels like these emotions disappear in the morning.
When you mentioned these usually happens at night, it actually makes sense because during the day, especially at school, your mind is occupied with different tasks and social interactions. But at night when things quiet down, your brain has space to process deeper emotions that don’t get airtime during the day.
You asked if everyone experience this, while many people do go through such moments, not everyone experiences them as sadness and despair on a recurring basis. So, while you are not alone in this, it doesn’t mean you should just wait for it to pass each time.
Since you mentioned it has been happening for a long time, it would be worth talking to someone about it, either a trusted adult, school counsellor or other mental health professional. You don’t have to carry all these by yourself.