hi, just needed some advice and input. twtw mentions of sh, I’ve been struggling with sh since I was 11 and i’m 16 now. i have a bunch of scars on my skin permanently now. my mind always jumps to two extremes. On one day, I can be vowing to never do it again so that I’ll be able to stay clean, and so that my skin can recover to its best condition. On another day, i always feel the need to create new ones to prove to people that I’m really struggling. How do I cope with this right now?
Hey @securerainbow2787, I appreciate you being so vulnerable and sharing your struggles so candidly, it must not have been easy to do so. From what you have shared, it sounds like self-harm is a cry for help in a way, for someone to notice and have your struggles feel truly validated by someone. It seems like you have this inner turmoil of deciding whether you want your skin to improve or for the hurt you are experiencing on the inside to continue peeking through the surface. I can only imagine how painful things have felt for you all this while, with 5 years of self-harming and not feeling seen in what you have been experiencing. It takes a lot of strength and introspection to realise this and the fact that you are wondering what to do suggests that there’s a part of you that wants to get help and ease some of the worries you are experiencing. Please be reminded that you are never alone, alright? If you feel like you are in need of a professional, you may try reaching out to 1771 to connect with a counsellor. I hope that you can continue to leverage on the part of you that seems to be on the fence about continuing this habit of self-harming and keep yourself safe 
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