hi, really lost and helpless right now
been struggling with self-esteem and anxiety issues all my life, but its gotten really bad recently with stuff going on right now
my parents do not take my feelings seriously, and think that mental health is an illness for those who have too much time to waste
Because of specific circumstances over the years my social circle has mostly disintegrated and I do not have pillars of support from friends or family
Though I have been trying to find help online I cannot find any sources of help or counselling support that does not involve privacy concerns (context is that I am a university student now on a government scholarship, and I have heard many cases about those who sought help through such channels being discriminated in their workplaces, even terminated after probation, likely from their leaked/involuntarily disclosed mental health histories). So most of the public channels are blocked out to me (as they are not bound to protect my data and session details to my public service employer). Private channels are out of reach too (financial costs, im not able to afford them)
my university counselling is also notoriously slow, drawn-out, and ultimately harmful to those who have tried it.
Just wondering if there are any remaining platforms of support I can seek help from and talk through my problems with, that allow me to remain anonymous / does not record and keep my details and information (of course, unless there’s threat of self-harm/harm to others/legal implications and criminal offences).