I feel hopeless almost every single day. Sometimes I do feel hopeful and have good days i guess, but thoughts about death still linger in the back of my mind and keep coming back. Every day feels like I’m just moving through it mindlessly, without really living it. These thoughts become even louder whenever something bad, stressful, or overwhelming happens. Is this normal for other people too? I think im overreacting.
What you’re describing sounds really heavy to carry, and I’m glad you felt able to put it into words here.
To answer your question directly, no, you’re not overreacting. Persistent thoughts about death, even if they are not constant, have to be taken seriously. The fact that they keep coming back and get louder during hard moments is a signal worth paying attention to, not something to dismiss.
I do want to ask, have you spoken to anyone else about this? A family member, or a trusted adult? Sometimes just having one person who knows what you’re going through can make a big difference, and you don’t have to navigate this alone.
It would also really help to speak with someone trained to support people through exactly this kind of experience. The Samaritans of Singapore (SOS) are available 24/7 at 1767, and if you’d prefer to text rather than call, their CareText line is at 9151 1767.
You deserve proper support for what you’re going through, so please do reach out to them alright?
my parents don’t approve of me seeking help from professionals as they think that doing so would mean that im totally mentally deranged. and another thing, if i did tell them, they would just tell me to pray more.
Can I ask how old you are? It would help me understand what options might actually be available to you.
And just so you know, if you were to call or text SOS at 1767 or 9151 1767, it’s generally a private conversation between you and the counsellor. Your parents wouldn’t typically need to be involved, though I can’t speak to every circumstance. It might be worth reaching out to them directly to ask about how their calls work if that’s a concern for you.
im seventeen years old
Thanks for sharing, @reliablecloud3697.
One place that might be a good fit for you is Flourishing Minds by the Singapore Children’s Society. It’s a free 30 mins mental health check in specifically for young people, and you can reach out to them directly without needing your parents to bring you. It might be worth looking them up to see if it feels like something you’d be comfortable trying. You can book an appointment here: Flourishing Minds @ Children’s Society
And the SOS option is still there too, calling 1767 or texting 9151 1767 doesn’t require any prior arrangement or parental involvement. It can just be a quiet moment where you talk to someone who gets it.