i really don’t know if it’s my mentality/attitude anymore or if there’s actually something wrong with me, because i feel like i have a lack of sympathy, and half the time i end up spilling secrets im not supposed to. then i feel bad, and i don’t know why, i feel like im wronged even know i know VERY clearly i am at fault. my mom says i care more about my friends than my family, and i dont know how to reply to that because its true, and i think im just being petty now. i dont really know, i guess, and i struggle to express my thoughts, when i have to speak they all disappear but when i actually have an opinion i lose the courage to speak or it comes out in the wrong way, like it sounds accusatory or something. i might pen down more stuff later (replying the post to add on) but please someone help me i don’t know whats wrong im so convinced its my attitude, and im scared whenever i talk to my friend about this she doesn’t really reply me and im scared i’ve triggered her. i’ve sh’ed a few times idk why it was all kind of like small and petty reasons. someone help me i guess i really need a direction to work to now
Hi @starrfading,
It sounds like you’re carrying a lot of confusion and self-blame right now and I want to assure you that there is support out there for you!
A few things you’ve described, the difficulty holding back information, thoughts disappearing when you try to speak, feelings coming out in ways you didn’t intend, these aren’t necessarily just attitude related issues. They can be signs that you’re struggling with emotional regulation and communication in ways that are genuinely hard to control without support.
It also doesn’t mean that you’re being difficult right now but more of having someone to help you understand yourself better.
For a start, would you like to reach out to National Mindline 1771 for some support now? You may call them at 1771 or WhatsApp 66691771.
Take care!