Hi there. I’ve been struggling with many issues recently with my self esteem and motivation in daily routines. I’ve been seeing a university counselor and also went for a consultation at an NUHS Polyclinic, where they gave me a small and brief questionnaire that gave me moderate scores on both depression and anxiety. After that, they appointed me a Health Mind Clinic appointment in 2 months time and a Psychology Service appointment in 3 months time, and also diagnose for now that meds are too risky for my young age of 19 for risk of increasing suicidal thoughts & tendencies . But after 1 month of waiting and hearing my counselor imply he may no longer be a fit for my issues, I feel like I’m at breaking point and can no longer take the wait. My own progress to fix myself has also been slow, for example I still cannot think any good of myself in my looks, skills and personality wise and I find getting out of bed to perform my daily routine extremely difficult. As such, I wanted to ask is it okay or justified to seek a private psychologist that can be consulted sooner while still retaining the polyclinic psychologist appointment? Or should I stay with the current plan and appointments, and try find another immediate and ad-hoc treatment like a new counselor to keep myself afloat? For now, I feel like the first option because it might be better than counseling and open the possibility of medication, because anytime I see others talking about how meds improved their lives and got them back on their feet I keep thinking it’s what I need, but I’d like some opinions here first.
Apologies for the long post, I just felt like it was better providing every bit of context instead of skipping over some bits that could have been important.
