i get what you mean, because my father can also be really naggy with me sometimes too, iām sec 1 and like you i was a star student in primary school, with good grades, i was a prefect too, and everyone said i was a really cheerful person.
now in sec sch it just gets so hard, i failed my sci wa2 and got lowest in class and i freaked out so bad because i had to go for sci consol, i hated how much my father nagged at me that i didnāt even tell him about my wa exams so i could save the pain of being nagged at everyday to study. now cuz its eoye season mah, i stay back to study a lot at school to avoid my annoying sister and my father. he said and i quote, ā80 percent for sci wont be too much to ask for right?ā and omds IT IS A LOT TO ASK FOR!! like think about it i flunked my science so bad so what makes you think i can do that in a matter of a few months?
i really try really hard when i study and it just seems like i can never meet his expectations, even for psle he thought i could get al6 but the thing is i never got that before, and when i got a al7d and improved from my prelim score 7m, he still scolded me and said i could have tried harder because al7 in my cohort was also a tricky score because it was a lot of schools cut off points.
so i guess itās been pretty long and i always donāt meet his expectations and end up getting scolded. when i said i wanted to quit third language last time he also didnāt let me because he said āit would be beneficial in politicsā but i NEVER EVER DID express interest in politics, i didnāt even follow it that much. he never listens to me and its so frustrating, because he thinks iām good when iām not.
when i asked him if i could go to a concert with my friend, first he said i can to āenjoy being a teenagerā, then he say āif you get below 70 for geog or history no more concerts everā, and iām only sec 1 so itās a first year, and iām in a ip school so ofc things are a lot more complicated, so whatās the point if youāre restricting so much more i can enjoy?! it hurts even thinking about it because i already have pretty less friends and i canāt lose her anymore.
maybe for me itās not as bad as yours but i hope you know that others also have similar experiencesā¦i guess itās just the classic asian experience. i would say you should try to understand your mother, and we really should try to understand even though thinking about it just makes me want to break down and cry lol
hope you can feel better babes <3 ok mb iām a tad bit late but i just felt like i had to say something lol