hi! i havent been on here in such a long time which is good but today i just found out my friends who i thought were my close friends had a group chat without me and suddenly all my forgotten problems in the past came to light again. i feel like i definitely over reacted as i cried the whole day in school, and even then none of them talked to me or even asked if im alright and i feel so stupid that i even expected them because im always the one going up to them. every time i think it cant get worse it always gets worse. i spiralled down a whole topic whether i am a good person and what have i done for them to not invite me seeing that i ALWAYS hang out with them in school. NONE of them even asked if i was okay which frankly, broke my heart A LOT. ive been struggling with groups and inclusivity the past years in this school and this was like the 4-5th time it has happened, not with the same people but almost the exact same scenario, which also makes me think, why am i not numb to this anymore? today i cried so much and didnt even eat until 4pm (i ate when i got home only) because the thought of them being in a group without me made me so nauseous i almost threw up a couple of times and i had the worst headache ever and that contributed to the lack of appetite. i heard somewhere that you dont need depression to feel depressed which is what im feeling right now. im super hopeless and i feel like a loser as i still cant make friends at my big age. sorry for the long post and thank you if you are reading this rn 
Sorry to hear abt being leftout. Which level are u in sch? Ive often went thru this as i tend to be quiet in big gatherings, since sec sch until uni was still. Have u thought of trying to manage being yr own best friend? @user4840