hi, 23F. i realised i might be lacking a part of romance in me, and idk if this is concerning - should i sign myself up for therapy or is this okay…
i recall there was a period back in primary and secondary school where everyone was talking about their crushes but i dont think i ever had a crush..? i only ever recall eye candy-ing on so-and-so actor/ young trainee teacher from NIE (no judgement here… my teachers are more mature looking in school) is so good looking. i thought okay.. that might be because i was young and i dont know what romance is.
fast forward to poly/ uni… i met new friends who were like “i want a boyfriend. why am i still single. this is so sad” and “i have this crush on this classmate. my heart beats very fast when im around him. i dont know how to behave when im around him”. i even had a friend who asked me if i wanted to tag along with her and her other friends who were going to the temple and pray to yue lao (something like the chinese version of cupid). even though i am older in this phase of life, i am unable to relate to my peers who want to be in a romantic relationship.
when it comes to watching dramas, i find myself cringing (a little) and making comments like “ugh the cast are so stupid. just confess to each other. dont need to go one circle.” when the genre is romance/ swoonworthy, when my peers actually enjoy such themes A LOT. not wanting to offend anyone, all my peers were fangirling over chinese actor zhang lihe but i dont get the hype…
is this concerning that i am missing a romantic piece in me…