am new here, have been talking to some friends & family about my problems but still cannot get over it. ive been at my part time job for 1.5 months but its only on Saturdays so ive only been there about 6 times. started out ok but this Saturday I felt like everything I do is not enough & I just got critiqued again and again. i tried to follow instructions from one of the bosses (its a small company run by a couple, the wife wasn’t in that day) but got some small things wrong & he told me I need to use logic if not there’s no point hiring me. they were small mistakes & easily fixable.
Later that day I tried conducting a workshop for customers but was already in a bad headspace from being told off a few times. the 2 previous weeks the fulltimer (as mentioned its a small business so there’s only 1 full time staff) was nice enough to teach me how to handle the different workshops they offer. I took down notes & I followed them as best as I could during the workshop but made some stupid mistakes as I wasn’t in a good mood, but I thought I did overall quite well being friendly to customers & guiding them. They also said they enjoyed themselves. I thought maybe I finally did something right that day so I asked the fulltimer if i did any parts well only to be told none at all & that she wasted her time teaching me as I don’t listen. I know I made a few stupid mistakes but i really didn’t think it was that bad.
I was really looking forward to this job when I first joined even though friends & family were concerned about the low pay. I applied because it’s something ive been interested in for a long time & its also kind of my first job (apart from some art commissions in the past) so I was willing to take the low pay. I’m very conflicted if I want to stay or not & I’m scared that if I stay they’ll soon fire me anyways. I feel like I have a lot to offer but haven’t gotten the chance to prove myself. This is also the only company in Singapore doing this kind of stuff ..
I also have an internship currently where my colleagues & bosses are much more understanding & nicer, which makes me notice how much more motivated I am to do a good job for people that are appreciative. I really don’t know what to do with my part time job. Maybe I’m overreacting but ive just been in a bad mood the past 2 days & crying on and off since that shift.
