A little backstory, I was told back then that I shouldn’t voice out and that the people around me are tired of my crap. i was also told that I was overly dependent on others.
Now, i keep a lot of things to myself and whenever i feel like voicing out I would regret, feeling like “I talked too much”. Everyone is going through their own struggles and I don’t want to potentially cause burden to others.
Aside from that, I think my trust issues are really bad because the people that were actually willing to listen to me were people who likes to gossip and spread stories. The people that I had considered close were usually absent during my struggles. This can be seen during my bad breakup where my ex cheated on me. A lot took this opportunity to add topics to their conversation. Meanwhile, my close friends chose to stay unbothered and didn’t check up on me once. The only time where they talked to me was to ask me to be their wingman or if they needed help. This kinda resulted me to become a more private and independent person! Sometimes, Idk how much I voice out is considered okay as everyone has different boundaries. i’m now even more private on my social media. I have also dropped all these friends and met new friends. But after all that happened, I find it really hard to get close to my friends now.
Is this normal?
