I think I’m having some issues but I don’t know what.
When I get angry, I often feel lost control I couldn’t think straight like there’s a devil telling me to do bad things.
And yes, I did some of the bad things because of my anger issue, or more I can say I want to revenge to people to make me feel angry.
Example, when my ex make me furious that he sold my thing without my concern, I report him to his company so he lost his job. And another one, my MIL give me and my husband a present, but mine was originally broken and he was completely new, I got angry and I feel so imbalance and I destroy his so he will have the item same condition as mine.
Am I crazy? When I get angry the first thing is always to release my anger through extreme action or really harsh word.
I don’t know if this is normal? Does normal people do that or just me having issues?
Hi @tinkibell, you’re not crazy and it’s a good sign that you’re stepping back and asking these questions!
To answer your question honestly though, the intensity you’re describing where anger leads to actions that cause serious consequences for others (like someone losing their job, or destroying their belongings), does go beyond what most people experience. Most people feel the impulse to retaliate when they’re hurt or treated unfairly, but the difference is usually in whether they act on it and to what degree. What you’re describing sounds like the anger feels so overwhelming in the moment that it bypasses your ability to pause and choose your response.
That’s not a character flaw or “craziness” as it can have real underlying causes, whether that’s past experiences, how you learned to cope with feeling wronged or powerless, or sometimes things like mood regulation difficulties that are very treatable. But it is worth taking seriously, both for your own wellbeing and for the relationships and situations around you.
Have you ever spoken to a therapist or counsellor about this specifically? Not because something is deeply wrong with you but rather understanding what’s driving that intensity.
If you’d like a listening ear, feel free to reach out to National Mindline 1771 by calling them at 1771 or WhatsApp 66691771.
Take care!