lately ive been feeling down with some days not even having the energy to get up but i do so either ways because ive got things to do. also, i keep getting annoyed and irritated by everyone who tries to talk to me or come near me but not when i approach them. but even when i feel down, i still feel “happy” in a way when im watching tiktok or hanging out with my friends. it feels like its a distraction from my feelings and life. ive been having trouble staying asleep lately as well that i get so tired of not being able to sleep i just go exercise by walking or cycling, and it usually clears my head. idk if this is a sign of depression or something else, or maybe im just being dramatic about myself. im so tired of being this way that i want to disappear (not suicide or death) but just be gone away from everything.
Hi @capableoak3770,
Thank you for sharing how you’ve been feeling lately. It takes a lot of courage to be open about your struggles, especially when it feels like you’re carrying a heavy weight every day. Not having the energy to get up but still pushing yourself to keep going shows real strength, even if it doesn’t feel that way.
I can hear how frustrating it is to feel easily annoyed by people around you, and how that makes social interactions even more challenging. It’s completely valid to notice that spending time on TikTok or with your friends brings some relief, even if it feels more like a distraction than a solution.
Trouble sleeping and feeling exhausted can really wear you down, and it’s understandable that you’d seek out activities like walking or cycling to clear your head. The way you’re questioning whether these feelings are a sign of something deeper, or if you’re being dramatic, is something that people commonly experience when they’re struggling. Wanting to disappear (not in the sense of ending your life, but just wanting to escape) can be a sign that you need some extra support right now.
Do you have any resources or people you can reach out to for help with what you’re experiencing? If not, we can help you explore some options together.
Dear @capableoak3770
Thank you for sharing. What you’re feeling sounds exhausting, and the symptoms you shared tell me that something is weighing heavily on your mind.
The fact that you can still feel “happy” when you’re with friends or on TikTok suggests that your mind is getting temporary relief, but the underlying feelings are still there when things get quiet again.
I think the irritability makes sense too. When drained, even small interactions can feel overwhelming.
I have seen that feeling of wanting to “disappear”, not to die, but just to get away from everything, usually comes from being tired and worn out.
To your credit, you have been exercising to cope better. May I also encourage you to speak to caring and experienced counsellors soon by contacting the National Mindline at 1771. It operates 24/7 and the counsellors can connect you with suitable resources that will help you get back on your feet.
Do be kind to yourself, always. Your life is precious and you matter.