Anyone has that feeling where you thought you are going to die? your spouse just dont understand the pressure that he is putting on as if im acting up for no reason. but the feeling is real and he doesnt seem to understand. i always think i will die first and he will be happy to remarry. but yet i dont want to die yet as i love my kids. nothing is making me feel at peace. spouse said i still doesnt know him even after all these years but i dont know why im agitated and angry at him. my thoughts are consuming me.
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Hi ssffnn
I’m sad to hear that you’re going through this. It sounds like you’re experiencing a lot of distress and feeling overwhelmed.
Firstly, please know that your feelings are valid. It’s understandable to feel like you’re going to die when you’re under immense pressure and feeling unsupported.
It’s also valid that your spouse’s lack of understanding and support can be hurtful and frustrating.
Having an open and honest conversation with him about how the behavior is affecting you could help. It might be helpful to use “I” statements to express your feelings and avoid blame.
For example say “ I feel sad when we do not spend time together’ rather than “you don’t spend time with me”.
Regarding your thoughts of dying and your spouse remarrying, it’s possible that these are anxiety-driven thoughts. It’s essential to address these thoughts and work through them with a mental health professional.
As a start, please do take time out for yourself to recharge, meditate and practise mindfulness. Cultivate habits of exercise and leisure activities you enjoy. This can remind you of the joys of life. Reach out to well meaning family and friends for support.
Remember, you deserve to feel at peace and supported in your relationship. If you’re struggling to manage your thoughts and emotions, consider seeking help from a therapist or counselor.
They can provide you with tools and strategies to cope with your anxiety and improve your relationship dynamics.
Lastly, please know that you’re not alone in this. Many people have gone through similar experiences, and there is support available. Don’t hesitate to reach out to resources such as the closest Family Service Centre or helplines such as the SOS 24 hour hotline, 1767.
Remember, you are loved, and your life is precious. Take things one step at a time, and don’t hesitate to ask for help when you need it.
Please take care♥️
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