I want to self harm. I have not really cut myself yet but I have tried to. I recently cannot control my emotions. I feel irritated at every small thing. My emotions can range from happy to sad within few hours. Especially when my thoughts starts spiralling, when I eat something, I dont like the texture of it. So I make myself vomit on purpose and starve myself for the entire day. I start breathing hard and very fast when I feel like I am going to breakdown and I cannot control my emotions from spiralling. What do I do? I dont like feeling this way. I used to be able to fontrol my emotions. I used to be in control of what J thought and what I felt. But now, both my thoughts and emotions keep spiralling. I cannot calm myself down. I keep wanting to breakdown and cry.
Hey @Davnel , I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way—it sounds like so much to carry on your own. Reaching out like this takes a lot of courage, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.
Emotions can be intense, and it’s natural to feel frustrated or scared when they start to spiral. I wonder have you considered seeking professional help - e.g., school counsellor, counsellor, etc, for help? You’re not alone, and there are people who care and want to support you. Meanwhile, if you can, consider talking to someone you trust, like a friend or family member. Sometimes just sharing what’s going on can make things feel a little less heavy.
Take things one moment at a time, and remember to be kind to yourself. You can do this!