I’m 31 this year. The past 20 years or so I’ve gone up and down through careers, messed them up and now I’m back at square one again. All this have been fueled by my parents never really having jobs and living in a really unstable household (I’ve lost count of the houses). I feel like everyone is only here for me if they need something from me and when I ask for help I don’t know how to directly and this is making me drown. My savings are depleted, my relationship is taking a hit because of my lack of ability to think straight, my family only talks about money and religion so most times I feel extremely alone, the same way I’ve felt since I was a child.
Be a bit more selfish. Your survival and self-care is first and foremost. Those around you did not plan out their lives, its not your fault to be their safety net. Family is just family biologically when they dont genuinely care about you. Keep your own bubble peaceful first before you can start fixing anything else. Cut away those who are leeches. You dont need to excuse your actions as either right or wrong just protect yourself.
Sorry that u are gg thru this… maybe take a step back self care first? Before findg another job