Idk why but recently life has felt monotonous and empty. Its always the same cycle. Wake up,Go to school,tolerate the 7 hours,do homework,and sleep. My friends dont even talk to me or want me around,so im merely just existing silently at this point. If i habe nothing to look foward to,whats the point??? I honestly find no meaning or excitement in life anymore. Living is absolute torture, and i want it to end soon.
Hey @Hazelelel. Thank you for being so honest. That deep sense of emptiness and loneliness is real, and it can feel really heavy. It makes sense to feel tired when it feels like you’re just surviving each day with no joy or connection.
You’re not alone, and that the pain you’re feeling right now is not permanent, even if it feels like it. More importantly, this pain you’re feeling doesn’t define you.
When life starts to feel meaningless, it’s not because you’re broken. It’s often a sign that something inside you needs to be seen and heard. Wanting everything to stop doesn’t mean you don’t want to live, it just means you want the pain to stop. That’s such a human, valid feeling. You deserve relief, not shame.
Would it help to talk to a school counsellor or a trusted and kind adult? You don’t have to go through this silently. Sometimes just being heard can make all the difference. Even small things like journaling, doodling how your day felt, or finding a safe space can begin to ease the weight.
It might not seem much now, but sharing this was a brave step. Really. And though things may feel hollow now, that space can slowly be refilled with support, hope, new moments and even joy again, with time and support.
You matter. You being here matters too. Let’s take it one small breath, one moment at a time, okay? 
Dear @Hazelelel
I’m glad you wrote in to share what you have been experiencing. This is a great first step to feel better.
What you’re going through sounds monotonous and joyless, and I can relate to what you shared that each day feels like a blur of going through the motions, with no joy or connection in sight. Feeling like you’re just existing, not really living, can be deeply painful. Especially when it feels like even your friends are drifting away or leaving you out. That loneliness you are feeling is valid, real and it hurts. It’s okay to say that. Your feelings are valid.
Just like what @ScribblingSunflower shared, this won’t be your forever. Even if it feels like life is grey right now, that doesn’t mean it always will be. You’re in a place where things feel stuck, but that does not mean there is all there is in life. Sometimes when everything feels the same and the days blur together, what we need isn’t to push harder. On the contrary, it’s to gently, patiently reconnect with the small things that make us feel even a tiny spark again. Do spend some time to reflect what these small things are and write them down. It need not cost much, and should not harm you.
You deserve to feel joy. You deserve to wake up and have something, even just one thing to look forward to. I hope you can consider trying out these small things. Something just for you. That might mean exploring a hobby you used to like, trying out an art class, picking up a new book genre, joining a school club or even just going for a walk while listening to music that makes you feel whole. I believe it might give your mind a little breath of fresh air. That small shift can be the first step out of the fog.
I also believe that there are people out there who would want to get to know the real you. You are not invisible, even if the people around you right now aren’t seeing you fully. It is probable that you haven’t met your people yet, but that doesn’t mean they’re not out there. You’re allowed to seek new connections, to join things that feel unfamiliar, to slowly build friendships in places you haven’t looked before.
Most importantly, please consider talking to someone you trust about how you’re feeling. A counsellor, teacher, or trusted adult can help you through this in a way that’s kind, safe, and real. Please know that you don’t have to hold this pain all on your own.
If you’re in Singapore, CHAT is a great place to start: https://chat.mentalhealth.sg
You can also call SOS at 1767 (they’re available 24/7 if things ever feel unbearable).
You might not see the way forward now, but that’s okay. Let someone walk it with you. You are not a burden. You are a human being trying to cope with a world that sometimes feels too much. And the world is better with you in it, even if it doesn’t feel that way today.
Please continue to reach out whenever needed. This numbness won’t last forever. Take small steps forward and it will be brighter days soon. 
Hey @Hazelelel , I’m really sorry you’re going through this. It sounds really tough and lonely, and it’s totally understandable to feel stuck and empty when every day feels like the same thing, especially when your friends aren’t reaching out. That kind of feeling can be really painful.
If you can, it might help to talk to someone you trust about how you’re feeling, whether that’s a family member, a school counselor, or someone else who can listen and support you. You don’t have to go through this by yourself, and there are people who can help.
You matter, even when things feel really hard. I’m here if you want to talk or just need someone to listen.
Find interests and try out new things until something sticks. Used to be like u n it worked for me. Not too sure about the friendship part cuz im struggling w that part. U open to be frens?
Hi @Hazelelel 
Thanks for sharing. I am a fellow student too and I feel like there are times when I can relate to this a lot so you’re definitely not alone 
It’s so difficult when life feels like an endless cycle and nothing much seems to change…
But it’s completely normal to feel this way so don’t judge yourself for it or feel angry at yourself 
But I also wanna let you know that this feeling is temporary and there will be some exciting and interesting moments ahead!
Perhaps you can consider trying something new, like a new hobby? Anything that interests you so far?
It must be a really heavy burden to carry when you feel like you don’t belong around the people in school, but sometimes it just means you haven’t found the right people and that’s okay. You can slowly and gradually try to talk to new people or those who you don’t interact with often This is definitely easier said than done but I know you got this! This could also help with the monotony you feel.
It’s impossible for everyday to feel new and fresh but sometimes noticing the little interesting moments that spark a little joy in you helps 
For instance, someone from CCA waved at you? Or you got to eat your favourite meal today? Or you got lesser homework today hahaha
I hope this helped lighten a bit of the burden you feel! Feel free to share more if you feel like it:people_hugging: I’ll be here to listen
I think it’s already a huge step forward for you to share about how you’re feeling!