im 30, ive worked in healthcare for almost 9 years. it started with passion, but after awhile its just burnout. the high turnover rates and unfairness at work have caused this incredible burnout. im tired of picking up others slack. my colleagues take advanced diploma paid by the company.. but they do the bare minimum but get higher recognition. and they dont even do the task they are supposed to do, always giving excuses that they have other things to do. but you can easily see how slack they are. whats the point then getting advanced diploma while others have to do the other half of your work. i have raised the issue to my managers and even HR but they are always changing the topic. even asking me to take advanced diploma if i am unhappy. but i have family commitments, i cant even have time for myself after work, how do i even make time for that. what i realise is they benefit from these colleagues because they are bonded and pick up their slack. and its a domino effect. for people like me who just wants a proper work life balance, i end up getting exhausted by the time my shift is over and have no time to even take a break. when i take leave or MC, i get shunned upon eventho i do more than those people. i do my service and care for the patients, while they slack off in office thinking about logistics and statistics. healthcare is such a toxic env, they dont even care about your health.
i recently found a job i know i will enjoy, because it allows me to take leadership and be creative, but its a big pay cut considering ive already build my career for over 9 years in healthcare.
but isit even worth it anymore. at this point i might not mind a pay cut but i struggle with GAD. and i take care of my 2 old parents, they are also hoarders so its alot to consider in managing their life as well.
i have 3 older siblings who all dont care about my parents because they are hoarders. my older siblings also always ask for money.
sometimes i feel like dying because im tired. im so tired of everything.