i have no one else to turn to about this i asked my family but they don’t seem like they are willing to listen (i mean rightfully so). i feel ashamed and petty abt myself. to start from the beginning i believe i did well for alevel… like a decent score. so when i was supposed to find a course for myself, this might sound real bad but i wanted a prestigious course. so i applied for medicine, partly also due to my interests. but more importantly i wanted to make my parents proud but i definitely screwed up the interviews so thats done. my second choice i chose smth safe something i thought i would get into. but tbh now i regret this choice, well this might sound very arrogant and trust me ik how egoistic i sound (someone just pls snap me out of this i want to change this mindset but i just physically can’t , idk whether it’s my upbringing but i shldnt be putting blames on my parents) but i saw my friends who did worse than me get into courses that required a higher score. Wow i sound petty but i am petty. i have no direct interests except med anyways now i cant even get into med and i see my friends end up in courses that are harder to get in even when their results are lower than mine. i’m unhappy i’m upset but more than that i’m damn ashamed of feeling this way .im supposed to be happy for my friends but here i am being salty abt it just because i won’t end up in a more prestigious course. GUYS PLS CALL ME OUT RIGHT NOW i want to snap out idk what to feel now i just feel slopped like i have no mood to even do anything anymore. i feel useless ,like whats the point of scoring well lol. i also want to be praised now i prob wont be bc i cant even get into a course good enough that will be recognised.
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Fyi I am no counselor or therapist ok lol, so pls take all of this with a grain (or maybe a teaspoon) of salt
I think theres a reason why u petty ok dont beat up yourself so much
Maybe you’re salty cus u worked harder for the results u got. Yet you see them get somewhere you wanna be. ITS UNFAIR i would be pissed as well
But u gotta realise theres more to life than prestige and praises!! Not saying what you want isnt “good” or “bad” ok but its gon be real damaging to u if u depend on ur social standing to be happy
Also u jus finished a levels so take a break!! its ok to just do nothing for months u deserve it queen/king/whatever
Again, do what u want with this, dont take this too srs cus idk im no philosophy teacher