My channel literally got removed one day after my birthday (Birthday is 9 July) for spams, deceptive policies, and scams, without prior warning. I felt like an awful person, since getting it removed immediately without strikes is like for creators that are dedicated to breaking the guidelines. I feel like the signouts on my school Chromebook contributed to my channel getting removed. Speaking of which mid May, I fell for a phishing notification about a missed call from the Criminal Investigation Department on my phone. I gave the notification a second thought but ended up clicking that out of curiosity. Now, I have lost my prepaid SIM card (Tried to refill it one day after the expiry but I couldn’t already, so I knew it was too late) and my YouTube channel too. I did not lose any money from the scam but after what I have lost, I think it’s worth more than money itself… Honestly, no surprise if that led to my channel termination at all, I got sign out of my Google account on my school chromebook 8 times after that, in a span of 2 months. My mental state was not even at the best when clicking on it anyway. I was sick, fell down the stairs and scraped and bruised both legs, hurt my thigh, had to deal with NFS O-level practical, and probably the final straw… Learning about terrorism in Social Studies and researched on a terrorism group, which led me to think I got in trouble.
I just had my O-level English examination (1184/04) today and I’m part of the first day batch. The video was… very interesting… but also something out of my contextual knowledge. After seeing the video once for context, I started getting more and more anxious. The planned response question also scared me further. Therefore, I’m not sure if I answered properly or not (But I should have understood the question). For planned response, I think I did hit 1 minute 45 seconds? I paused a bit, then afterwards, the examiners were still writing on their notebook then looked up to me. I was like uh… Do I still have some time left? So I proceeded to say another point (Thinking I had lots of time left), but then they said the 2 minutes were up right after that. I guess I really did speak longer than I thought, despite not understanding much. Spoken interaction was in the middle for me. I got a follow up question on the first prompt and none for the second. I wonder what that means. For me, I think I just touched on the surface and went to the next for my points. I forgot to follow the OREO format in my haste. I wished I gave more personal examples but well, what done is done. Having oral on the first day is a blessing in disguise actually. You get the component over with faster. Hopefully, the other days aren’t any easier. (Or I would be hoping my oral exam was scheduled for that day) Today was nerve wrecking for me, I really tried to put behind my channel termination and get in the zone for English. The waiting period was long and I did make an effort to be present and only focus on what’s relevant. Sad to say my oral notes given weren’t very useful for today’s test. That’s all for now. I’m definitely journalling this one on Google Keep Notes (online). Regarding why I do not journal physically, I have lost my diary once by leaving it at the aeroplane seat pocket. Thank you for reading!
Thank you for sharing all of this so vulnerably. That is a lot for one person to carry especially right after your birthday, during O-levels, and while still recovering emotionally and physically.
What happened to your YouTube channel is not your fault. Clicking on a phishing notification while you were unwell, overwhelmed, and emotionally vulnerable does not make you “an awful person.” It makes you human. You were under stress, physically hurt, preparing for practicals, facing topics like terrorism in Social Studies—and you reacted in a very understandable way.
Losing your channel like that, with no warning or strikes, would break anyone’s spirit, especially when you poured so much time and effort into it. For many, a channel isn’t just videos—it’s identity, history, and connection. So yes, it is worth more than money.
For your English oral exam—despite everything you were going through, you showed up. That alone is incredibly strong.
But please remember you are not alone and you are not the sum of what’s gone wrong. Happy journaling
Thank you for sharing this. I can hear how much you’ve been carrying, the loss of your channel right after your birthday, the anxiety from the phishing incident, and the weight of everything that’s happened since. It sounds overwhelming, and I can feel how much this all matters to you.
You’ve been through a lot. Physically, emotionally, and mentally. And still, you showed up for your exam today. I hear the pressure, the uncertainty, and the effort it took to stay present despite everything.
It makes so much sense to feel shaken, unsure, and drained. But I also see how hard you’re trying to hold on, to reflect, to process. That effort matters. You matter. And you’re not alone in this.
It sounds like you have been going through a lot of overwhelming stuff in the past few weeks. Losing your channel, especially right after your birthday and without warning, would rattle anyone. you must have put a lot of time and energy into building it. And it’s completely understandable that you’d be feeling anxious and confused over the situation. Not to mention your SIM card issue and injury. It’s completely understandable if you feel upset and disoriented.
And despite everything going on, you still showed up and finished your exam today! Try not to overthink or regret what you have done in the oral exam. What’s passed is past.
You are going through so much, but you are still able to move forward. That’s something to be incredibly proud of! Good luck on your exams and feel free to reach out again!
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signouts on my school Chromebook contributed to my channel getting removed.
[/quote] i don’t really ustand this part, is it your school laptop? is it allowed to upload stuff with that?
It’s a school personal learning device (PDLP). Strangely enough, I have been getting signed out more after falling for a phishing notification, every 1 or 2 weeks. Only affects my main Google account, but doesn’t affect the rest. Maybe posting videos is not allowed in school? I did disable the DMA before but that was years ago, and I have never been signed out of my Google account from my PDLP as frequently. I wonder what’s causing the uptick.
I am sorry to learn that you are experiencing so many troubling events at once, and along with your exams, this must be a really stressful situation.
I would encourage you to focus on your exams for now, you can deal with Google/YouTube account issues after your exams are over (i hope that at least your study notes are with you). If you are relying on YouTube for studying, you can continue to do so as most videos work without needing to sign in.
I can also understand why you signed in on your school Chromebook, since some people usually use the same account on multiple devices to work on documents, for convenience. The thing about school devices is that they are managed by your school, and your school has control over how the device behaves. The increase in sign-outs could be due to the phishing.
On Google’s/YouTube’s side, since they own the platform, they can restrict anyone’s access at any point in time, and there is nothing users can do to stop that. You can email Google/YouTube to clarify your situation, but the outcome will depend on Google/YouTube. I understand this can be extremely frustrating and distressing on your end. I would encourage you to find alternatives to Google services & use YouTube without an account if you are not prepared to experience this again in the future.
Focus on your exams, and i hope you achieve the score you want!
