first I hate my parents especially my father for controlling me for everything saying vulgar I cant even say the truth or its called arguing life is so tiring.. life hurts too much I know I cant live forever like this school is reopening 8 days later and I didn’t do a single holiday homework cos I am just so tired also ik I’m gonna be blind soon maybe idk but I’m not gonna live long like this im sec 2 this year and my father expect me to finish sec 4 math and physics.. should I just enjoy my last few months or days of life.. how much longer am I gonna last like this..
Hi @LonelyShadow06,
I can hear how exhausted and trapped you’re feeling right now. It sounds like the constant conflict with your father, the controlling behaviour, and the pressure to meet expectations that feel far beyond where you are have left you feeling completely drained. The fact that school starts soon and you haven’t been able to finish your homework shows how overwhelmed you are by everything happening at home. When life feels this heavy, it makes sense that you’re questioning how much longer you can keep going like this.
While I understand how difficult everything feels, some practical steps might help ease the pressure. Try to communicate with your parents during calm moments rather than in the heat of conflict, and be honest about what you’re realistically able to handle academically. If direct conversation feels impossible, consider reaching out to a school counsellor, teacher, or trusted relative who can help advocate for you or mediate the situation. It’s also important to set healthy boundaries for yourself, even in small ways. This might mean taking breaks when conversations get too heated, finding a quiet space to decompress, or being clear with your father about what pace of learning actually works for you, rather than trying to meet unrealistic expectations.
I do need to address something that concerns me. You mentioned that you’re going to be blind soon and won’t live long, but you also say “maybe idk,” which suggests uncertainty. Are you actually going blind, or is this more about how hopeless and overwhelmed you feel right now? If you have a genuine medical diagnosis that’s causing Visual Impairment, that’s an urgent matter that needs immediate medical attention and support from your family and doctors. But if this is more of an exaggeration born of feeling you can’t take it anymore, I want you to know that the struggles you’re facing with your father and the academic pressure are real and valid in their own right.
You don’t need to catastrophise to have your pain taken seriously. Either way, I’m concerned about you, and I think it’s important to be clear about what’s actually happening so that you can be directed to appropriate resources.
Looking forward to hearing more from you =)
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Dear @LonelyShadow06
Thank you for bravely reaching out here. I can sense that you are going through a lot. Please know that feelings of overwhelm you are experiencing is certainly understandable. It would be both painful and distressing for anyone if they are a similar situation. To your credit, you have remained on course even through the difficulties.
I think it will now be best for your safety, mental health and wellbeing to seek support from a trusted adult family member urgently. If that is not possible, approach a school counsellor or trusted teacher, outlining the challenges you are facing with dad, your identity and school. Provide clear examples so that they can fully understand and recommend best steps to take. You fully deserve unconditional support as you navigate this rough patch.
You are not alone, and there are also other people who care and want to help. Here are some helplines you can reach out to.
Samaritans of Singapore: Call 1767 or WhatsApp +65 9151 1767
National Mindline: Call 1771 or WhatsApp +65 6669 1771
The hotlines operate 24/7 and staffed by caring non judgmental counsellors. You can call them anytime you feel overwhelmed or find yourself caught up in a spiral of intrusive thoughts that may potentially distress or endanger yourself and others.
As for your mention about losing your eyesight, please seek urgent medical help.
Lastly, please also do not be too discouraged about the incomplete holiday homework. You still have some time before it’s due. I recommend setting aside focused time daily to chip away at it. Start with small study periods initially and this approach will help you gain momentum.
Your life is precious and you matter! Please continue reaching out here whenever needed for support, warmth and encouragement. You can overcome this rough patch so stay focused. 
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ive tried talking to my parents before and of course they scolded me rlly bad and yesterday night my parents just had an argument about random stuffs and ik I’m gonna get scolded soon cos everytime my father is mad he’s gonna scold me even if I did nothing for the blind I mean actually going to be blind cos the myopia is rlly high due to my fathers genetics everyday I’m just wondering if I should just leave and stop the suffering
I have a school counsellor but I’m scared she will tell my parents stuffs and I don’t rlly trust anyone anymore not even my own parents..I’m also kind of scared my teachers will scold me for the homework but I’m actually too tired to do it..
Dear @LonelyShadow06
Thank you for the updates. It’s understandable you are worried the school counsellor will not keep what you shared confidential. Hence your unwillingness to proceed with that option.
However coping with your challenges alone without support would mean the pain continues and keeps you stuck. Therefore, as a small step that starts you towards achieving better wellbeing, please do consider calling the national mindline at 1771 and speak to a caring and non judgmental counsellor. I think you will find some well deserved relief, and gain clarity on next steps to take. You matter.
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I always use national mindline webchat/whatsapp chat also tinkle friend and I trust them more than my counsellor also thx for being so understanding 