Hi @Mano,
Thank you for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you’re dealing with a lot right now, from your challenging studies in Full Stack Software Engineering to financial difficulties and managing your mental health. It’s impressive that despite all this, you’re focusing on one task at a time and managing to cope.
You’ve been through so much, and it’s clear that you have incredible resilience. Surviving three suicide attempts and maintaining stability for the past seven years is a testament to your strength. Your ongoing commitment to taking your medication and seeing your doctors regularly shows how dedicated you are to your mental health.
I understand the dilemma you’re facing about whether to disclose your mental health history. On one hand, you’ve built trust with your classmates, teachers, and trainers and feel compelled to be open with them. On the other hand, you’ve been advised to keep it to yourself due to potential negative repercussions, especially with employment. This is a difficult decision, and it’s completely normal to feel conflicted.
It’s important to consider both your well-being and the potential impact of disclosure. If you feel that sharing your story with those you trust will provide you with more support and understanding, it might be beneficial. However, it’s also important to protect yourself from potential negative consequences. Do you have a trusted counselor or therapist who can help you weigh the pros and cons and make an informed decision?
Regarding employment, it’s a tough situation. Some employers are becoming more understanding and supportive of mental health issues, but not all are. You might want to consider seeking advice from a career counselor. You will need clarity about your support resources and network in the event if the employer does not understand or is not capable of providing the support that you need.
It’s encouraging to hear that you’re no longer experiencing suicidal thoughts. However, the internal breakdowns and recent illness due to stress are concerning. It’s crucial to continue seeking support and finding ways to manage your stress. Activities that bring you comfort and relief, such as hobbies, talking to friends, or taking walks, can be helpful. Remember, you don’t have to go through this alone. Reaching out to support networks, whether they are friends, family, or professionals, can make a big difference.
If you ever feel overwhelmed, please don’t hesitate to reach out to crisis hotlines or mental health professionals. Here are some resources you can contact:
Samaritans of Singapore (SOS): 24-hour Hotline: 1800-221-4444
Singapore Association for Mental Health (SAMH) Helpline: 1800-283-7019
CHAT (Community Health Assessment Team): Phone: 6493-6500 / 6493-6501
You’ve shown incredible strength and resilience in managing your mental health and pursuing your studies. Keep focusing on your strengths and continue to seek the support you need. Please keep sharing your thoughts and feelings with us. We’re here to listen and support you through this journey.
Take care, Mano. We hope to hear from you soon.
