Is it normal for one to look at fictional characters and go: “I want to be his child”? To yearn for the fatherly affection I can’t remember receiving?To imagine scenarios of getting affection from people, fictional characters as well. To just yearn for affection, comfort.
It’s weird, I know. To like someone only because you think they would be a good father towards you. But that is just me, I’ve grown a mindset of liking only male characters who may be good father figures. I just want to have a father. An affectionate one. My father is affectionate, he is. I am not saying he is bad, but. I just want affection.
I could go on rants, and stupid delusions about what I would want a fictional character to do with me. And all of it is just affection. Not going to go into the details of that or anything, a little bit too insane to rant on.
But is it normal? Too look at one character, a character I would analyse. And then I would realise they are exactly like me. Their emotions, their unique little personalities. I would simply just think: “I want them as my father.” It would be from just liking how they act and look to: I want them as my father so much.
Is it normal to act like this? To have this stupid yearning for affection. Fatherly affection in fact. Any other form of affection from people I dislike would repulse me.
