Hey I am back again; its been a pretty difficult period of time for me i had cried i dont get it why its so hard man
for context (this is a shared account but this post was also done by me) this was what had happened and he advised me to cut them off and set boundaries for myself which i found difficult to do because i have had terrible experiences with people just being cold and cutting me off
but i have been so negative and like i was reading this post and like it is reasonable for him to cut me off i guess but i try not to be but i cant help it when i am spiralling
like in a moment of weakness and stuff it was his birthday and i initiated contact by dropping a message which i apologised again and said it was difficult; he did not read it which was hurtful
some ppl are suggesting that it might be too late and that i should try talking to him f2f else its done idk man
its just that i dont make many friends, its difficult for me and like every time i get attached to one they just seem to disappear; he was always there for me and i dont want to ■■■■ it up