Dear @Tissuehui ,
Thank you for opening up about what you’re going through. It sounds incredibly tough, and I’m so sorry to hear you felt abandoned by your family members. Feeling constantly left out and struggling with negative thoughts and emotions can be really overwhelming. Living in a situation where you don’t feel a sense of belonging can make everything even harder. It makes sense that you’re feeling hurt and frustrated, especially when your feelings aren’t being acknowledged or respected by your family.
Let’s also take a moment to appreciate your strengths too. You sound like an incredibly strong and resilient person for being able to express how you feel, even when it’s difficult. Well done! 
If you feel comfortable please share more with us like when you mention negative thoughts, are these feelings directed towards everyone in general, or are they more specific to certain people or situations? Understanding the root of these thoughts can help in finding effective ways to address them and regain a sense of peace.
Crying out of nowhere is your body’s way of signalling that it needs more care and attention. While it’s wonderful to receive care and support from others, it’s equally important to attune to what our emotions are telling us instead of dismissing them.
Feelings are like signal lights that let us know when something unpleasant has happened. Most of the time, by simply observing the feeling and allowing ourselves to feel the uncomfortable emotions, they will pass on. However, if we ignore or bypass them, those feelings can grow stronger and come out in different ways. There is no shame in feeling our feelings; they play a crucial role in our emotional well-being and help us navigate our experiences.
Crying is one of our body’s natural responses that can help us process and express our sadness. It’s a way for our emotions to find a release. If you find yourself frequently crying or struggling to manage your emotions, it might be worthwhile to consider reaching out to a counsellor for additional support.
In a safe and supportive environment with an emotionally attuned therapist, you can learn the art of feeling your feelings. Through therapy, you have the opportunity to explore your emotions in depth, gain insights into their underlying causes, and develop healthy coping mechanisms. Additionally, receiving validation for your experiences can be incredibly empowering. Your therapist can also support you in weighing out all factors to consider if you should move out or try different strategies to communicate with your family members. Here are some community options you can consider:
Seeking help is a sign of strength, not weakness. Taking steps to prioritise your mental and emotional well-being can lead to greater self-awareness, resilience, and overall life satisfaction.
To answer your question ‘if you have depression’, it would be best to reach out to a psychiatrist for a formal assessment. There are certain conditions and factors that need to be assessed by a professional. It’s normal to have periods of low moods and feel low, and that may not necessarily require a depression diagnosis or medication. Sometimes, learning how to regulate our nervous system is sufficient, while others may benefit from the aid of medication. Ultimately, it comes down to how well we look after ourselves physically, mentally, and emotionally to thrive.
I hope the above has been helpful and if you’d like more resources or if there is anything else you’d like to share with us, please do. We’re here to listen to you, your feelings are valid and you matter! 
Take care,
CoolBreeze =)