Lately, I have been worrrying about becoming a worse person. I forgot to organise my life properly and I feel like im forcing people to accomodate to me. I have no proof that the people in my life have any vendetta against me, but I feel so nervous and anxious its constantly bothering me and I feel the need to people please even more to cope.
Is this normal?
Hey @user393596. Thank you for trusting this space with something that clearly feels overwhelming for you. I can imagine how unsettling it must be to constantly worry about being a burden or becoming someone you don’t want to be, while also feeling anxious and on edge around others.
When anxiety is around and loud, it can feel like you’re always on hyper-alert where you’re scanning for signs or “evidences” that you’ve done something wrong, even when there’s no clear proof. Many people do experience this during periods of stress or uncertainty, so you’re not alone in feeling this way, okie? 
From the outside, it doesn’t sound like you’re uncaring or selfish at all. It sounds like you’re someone who genuinely wants to do right by others and is feeling overwhelmed and unsure how to hold everything together right now. A lot of us lean into people-pleasing during those moments because it feels safer than risking disapproval or misunderstanding because it feels “safe”.
Instead of seeing this as being a sign that you’re becoming a “worse person”, it might actually be a sign that you care deeply and are going through a period where things feel uncertain and unsteady. It’s completely okay to need support, flexibility, or understanding from others sometimes.
You know, you’re already showing strength and self awareness by noticing these patterns and questioning them. So, I want to acknowledge that for you.
If this worry continues to feel heavy or starts affecting you more than before, you don’t have to carry it alone. Reaching out to someone you trust like a trusted supportive adult, a close friend, or a mental health counsellor can really help you make sense of what’s going on and feel less stuck in your own thoughts. Having someone sit with you in this can bring clarity and relief, even if nothing gets “fixed” right away.
I hope you’re able to be gentle with yourself as you navigate these. Wishing you steadiness, kindness and gentleness toward yourself as you take this one step at a time, okie? 
Dear @user393596
It’s good you reached out as you navigate the current situation you are experiencing. I think this displays self awareness and determination to seek improvements.
Adding on to what @ScribblingSunflower has shared, it would be good to speak to a counsellor soon on what has been happening around you that may have triggered this heightened feeling you are becoming worse. The counsellor provides a safe non judgmental space for you to unpack your thoughts, beliefs and assumptions. You don’t have to go through this alone.