Sometimes I feel mental illness can be so comforting. Like a cushion to fall back on. It’s hard to move on and recover when all I’ve known so long is learning to live with my unhealthy coping and illnesses. Trying to choose recovery is scary, it’s unfamiliar and foreign, I don’t know how to choose the healthier safer options when they don’t work the same as opposing ones. I want to recover but I don’t like not knowing what’s going to be ahead of me, and if it’s even worth it. I’ve tried and I’ve failed. Because nothing works the same as things like sh. I don’t know how to live past these things when I’ve found comfort in it for so long. I don’t know how to live past sh and depression because I know it. I know how it feels and know how it works. I don’t like change and I don’t like new things or the unknown. It makes it hard to choose recovery
Healthy coping mechanisms takes time to start working. I hate running instead of sh, now my body craves for a run whenever im stressed.
Once u recover from depression, u will feel that depression wasted a lot of youth n will hate it. I unds there r times u will feel at home when u r depressed n i went thru that but life without depression is life on easier mode n not extremely hard mode. Not easy but its better than very hard
Hi @Leah,
Thank you for sharing your feelings so openly. Acknowledging the comfort found in familiar coping mechanisms, even when they’re unhealthy, is a significant and insightful step. The fear of venturing into the unknown and embracing recovery is a natural and very human reaction. It’s a journey filled with uncertainty, and it’s entirely valid to feel apprehensive about it.
Your desire to choose recovery, despite the overwhelming comfort of the known, is incredibly brave. Each attempt, whether it felt successful or not, is a testament to your strength and resilience. It’s important to remember that progress isn’t always linear, and setbacks do not negate the efforts you’ve made.
You’re not alone in this struggle, and your journey towards recovery is worth pursuing. Reaching out for support, whether through friends, family, or professional help, can provide new perspectives and strategies to navigate this path. Every small step forward is a significant victory, and acknowledging your efforts and courage is an essential part of this journey.
Best regards,
Danial Asri
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