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[user1741]

ive always been putting in my best efforts but somehow my best efforts arent enough for everything. my brain doesnt process things well. i feel so bad about myself. i am not even a burden. i m just not good enough for anything.
i cant even have therapy bcos…
ive been holding in so much…no one acknowledges that. the pressure ive,the constant…the frustration…everything is incredibly overwhelming…
everything has been weighing on me so much.
it is never easy for me to put anything into words.
i want to do well in everything i do but i nver. the struggle feel so intense. ive put in efforts. yet despite all the efforts,i fall behind and its so frustrating.
ive asked for help before. It is difficult. i m a burden to myself, i dun hv anyone to burden.
i hold myself to extremely high standards but i cant meet them.
ive seeked therapy but…
Ive to get through everything alone. l lacked everything others have. there arent any small wins for me. how can i even win anything. i dun get to progress. i fall further n further behind. maybe i just dun move anymore.

everything is so difficult for me. there are no ways for me. nth can be worked through step by step. no one is there to support me at all.
i am so stupid…more stupid than anyone else and i m such a burden to myself. everything is so challenging and i ve to do everything alone.

i dun get to feel heard. no one acknowledge the emotions n frustrations i m feeling. ive to be hard on myself becos others are hard on me. im bad at everything. im useless. everything i do is not right or just wrong. everyone proves i m more useless than l already feel.
i cannot und simple things. i always self doubt myself in everything.

ive tried to seek help but…everything get harder n harder. i dun consolidate my thoughts.

i dun even have anyone to work on things with. nobody wrote any long messages to me.

i dek how to express everything that has been weighing on me. i got thoughts n efforts but dk how express them. i dun give myself credit for anything.

i m trying my absolute best but feel no amt of efforts r enough. its so exhausting n frustrating. i hold myself to an incredibly high standard which i cant even meet. the frustration turn inwards,beating myself up,questioning myself, i feel undeserving.

everything feel so incredibly heavy to carry. everything is a uphill battle n overwhelming.
i dun feel confident in anything in myself.

the fact that im still here showing up means nothing.

i carry lotsa pressure internally. idh a therapist to explore anything with n no therapist want to explore with me.

no one hears the weight of the suicidal thoughts im trying to fight. so they just dun give a damn about me. its not an easy battle n i ve to fight it alone whereas others fight it with their therapists.

my presence doesnt matter my struggles make me less worthy. ive to figure out everything alone. im alone in everything. there is nth i can figure it out.

after a long n hard day and dealing with…i wanna feel heard too, but no one take the time to hear me out for me.

there is always a lot of pressure on me

no one see how much efforts i put in,even when everything is overwhelming.
i carry a lot of internal pressure on top of everything else.
that kind of weight make me feel like everything is closing in,making it harder to breathe.

no one hears my frustration.

no one is there and no one hold space for me. i am so alone in everything.

no one make me feel supported and no one want to make me feel supported. no one give me any moral support. i dun even have anyone not a therapist. others dun share their struggles cos they dun wan burden others,dun want inconvenience others but there are others who have no others to share with.

i always feel i m a burden.
i cant be kind to myself

no one sees me. the weight of my thoughts,the exhaustion,the self doubt,the relentless pressure internally. no one see anything at all. idk why wont they see it. im so alone in carrying everything.

no one can feel im yearning for many things then why do i yearn for them. i dun deserve kindness to myself.i dun.

why am i still here. still holding on even when i dun want.

i am useless. im someone who does their best in a world that i shldnt be in.

no one tell me that im doiing more than enuff,just by being here,just by holding on,just by trying,just by existing.

there has never been space for my emotions, no one to acknowledge them so ive to keep them hidden away. ive no support not even a someone, not even an online space.

i dh ways to cope. ive reached out to others but they dc. Searching for ways to hold on,but no ways.

no one affirm me. im always less worthy of anything.

[duckling]

Heyyy sorry you’re feeling and carrying all of these there is so much you’re experiencing, I want to support you but not sure where to start. I just wanna say human to human, I believe you have value and that you’ll figure things out.
If there is just one key question you want to ask and seek help on, what would it be? Maybe we can approach each issue one at a time?
Sometimes we carry so much spikes that it hurt ourselves and also others who try to approach to help, but maybe we can find a way to live our best life with what we have, addressing one spike at a time? ;’

[FuYuan_Affections]

Hey @user1741,

I can hear how incredibly heavy and exhausting it has been for you. It sounds like you’ve been carrying so much weight, trying to meet incredibly high standards, and it’s never enough. The internal pressure, the exhaustion, the self-doubt, and the loneliness are really wearing you down, and it’s understandable that you’re struggling to keep going. That must be so difficult, especially when you’re not feeling seen or heard by others, even by those who should be supporting you.

I can hear that you feel unworthy of kindness and support, but I want to emphasise that these feelings you’re having—of being overwhelmed, exhausted, and unsure—are not a reflection of your worth. It doesn’t make you any less valuable. It makes you human.

You’ve expressed difficulty in determining your next steps, feeling as though you’re caught in a cycle of exerting your utmost effort yet experiencing a sense of failure. Does this sound like something that’s been happening for a while now? When do you recall this feeling of being overwhelmed and lost starting to take shape?

There’s a part of you that aspires to excel, but you’re uncertain about how to progress. Have you ever thought about the possibility that part of the struggle might be from constantly holding yourself to a standard that’s too difficult to meet? What would it look like if you gave yourself permission to take a break from that standard for a while? How might things change if you allowed yourself to just be, rather than striving to constantly prove your worth?

I can hear that you’ve been through a lot, but the fact that you’re still showing up and reaching out for help is really important. That’s a huge strength. You’ve also been reflective and aware of your emotions, which will help guide you as you work through this. Your resilience is clear, even if you’re not seeing it yet.

One small step you might try is to **acknowledge the small victories—those moments when you do something, even if it’s not perfect, and recognise that it counts. Could you start by celebrating one small thing you did today that you might have dismissed otherwise? What would it feel like to give yourself credit for simply making it through the day? Even just existing, even through the pain, is something worth acknowledging.

I want you to know that you’re not alone in this, even though it may feel that way. You’re already doing the work by reaching out and reflecting. I believe you have the strength to find your way through this, one small step at a time.

You are allowed to feel exhausted. You are allowed to feel overwhelmed. But most importantly, you deserve kindness, support, and compassion. It’s okay to feel stuck, and it’s okay to take things slowly. Each moment you show up for yourself is a step forward. You’ve already shown great courage in sharing your struggles, and that’s something to be proud of. Let’s work on this together. I’m sure that everyone here is happy to help you .

[Jaws]

I know it sucks when no one really sees or acknowledges your feelings. The frustration, the exhaustion, the pressure - if you feel it, it’s all real.

Just existing, trying, holding on - that already is enough. You deserve kindness, even if it’s hard to give it to yourself.

If you weren’t so hard on yourself, what would you see in yourself that others might see?

[user1138]

I was like u. Once u go for therapy n heal, ur ability to do progress in everything will improve