Hi @Anonymous394,
Thank you for sharing what you’re going through—I can hear how overwhelming and confusing it all feels for you right now. It sounds like you’ve been carrying around these heavy feelings for a while, and it’s tough when you can’t figure out exactly why you’re feeling this way. I want you to know that it’s okay not to have all the answers right now—sometimes emotions don’t have a clear cause, and that doesn’t make them any less real or important.
You mentioned that you don’t know why you’re feeling like this, and that’s actually more common than you might think. Sometimes, we go through periods where everything on the outside seems “normal,” but inside, we feel lost or stuck. What you’re feeling is real, and just because you can’t point to a specific reason doesn’t mean it isn’t valid. Your feelings are valid.
I also hear you questioning whether you’re being “attention-seeking,” but it’s important to recognize that wanting help and care isn’t about seeking attention, it’s about needing support—and that’s a perfectly human need. If your mind is constantly filled with sadness or thoughts of self-harm, that’s a signal that something deeper is going on, and it deserves to be looked at with compassion, not judgment.
You mentioned that you always put others’ needs first, and I can see how that’s been draining for you. When we’re constantly prioritizing other people’s emotions, it’s easy to lose track of our own well-being. I wonder if you’ve ever stopped to ask yourself, What do I need right now?—because you deserve to care for yourself just as much as you care for others.
The way you describe feeling tired and disappointed by the competitive nature of people around you makes me think you might be feeling disconnected. You’ve been pouring energy into thinking about others, and it sounds like you’re not getting the same care or consideration in return. It’s exhausting, and it makes sense that you’re feeling drained. Take a moment to ask yourself—Is there space for me to ask for help, too? Sometimes, the act of reaching out for support is the first step toward feeling seen.
I noticed that you feel some envy when you see others getting help, and that’s completely natural. It sounds like you’re longing for that kind of support but are unsure how to ask for it. This doesn’t mean your struggles are any less serious than theirs. You deserve help too. If you feel like things are getting too heavy to handle on your own, reaching out to a counselor or someone you trust can make a huge difference. Just because you haven’t done it yet doesn’t mean you can’t start now.
I can hear the exhaustion in your words, especially when you talk about how life seems like a never-ending cycle of tiredness. I know it feels like this is how life is going to be, but it’s important to remember that feelings aren’t permanent. Right now, it might feel like there’s no way out, but that doesn’t mean things can’t change. Taking small steps to care for yourself, like talking to someone about what you’re going through, can start to shift things in a new direction.
One thing you can do right now is acknowledge that what you’re feeling isn’t a sign of weakness—it’s a sign that you’ve been carrying a lot on your own. If you can, try reaching out to someone, whether it’s a counselor, a trusted friend, or even a helpline. Sometimes just talking about what’s going on, even if you don’t know exactly why you’re feeling this way, can help relieve some of the weight.
Would you be open to talking to someone about what’s been on your mind? You don’t have to figure everything out alone, and you don’t need to wait until things get worse to seek help.
I want to remind you that you’re not weak. It’s okay to feel tired and lost, but that doesn’t mean you’re stuck forever. You’re reaching out now, and that’s a sign of strength. There’s help available, and it’s okay to take that step for yourself. You deserve to be supported, just like anyone else.
Take care of yourself.
