so I found a bump on my neck like yesterday, freaked out like mad, CHATgpt it about a good hundred times, could not focus the whole day. decided to let it be n go to sleep
woke up n the nxt day I jst spent it fully thinking, crying about it ( no joke I cried the whole morning about it, I could not study at all ) I have Os so soon but I can’t. And like I texted my mom she brought me to the doc, he doc said it’s prob a scar frm a swollen lymph node and i will try my best to believe him but that huge fear is still in me that it cld be a terrible horrifying illness and that always goes on in my head whenever I see smt wrong to me. like that time there was a red dot on my palm, I thought I was dieing from some skin illness. I can’t even write downt the name of the BIG illness tht im terrified from already bc the word itself scares the ■■■■ outta me. I prob started having this huge fear after like losing my grandfather when I was young to it, a friend I had in p3 to it, and my relative recently checked and has it too. Im scared, im terrified im seriously so done I don’t even feel that scared seeing a live flying cockroach it’s insane it’s like my nervous system can’t tell apart having sm discomfort VS a truck cmg full speed at me. it’s insanely strong of a voice in my head, it makes me go frm happy to immediately panic/depressed cry all day, can’t focus. It’s so stupid and it’s my second time having a fullblown panic attack over it. Im scared, im only 16. Ik many in SG have high cholesterol and all that, ill have to deal w smt like tht one day, it’s terrifying to know tht everytime smt feels wrong w my body, my mind immediately links to the big illness branch n idek why like srsly im tired. I’m drained. I can’t do anything tdy except cry and cry and worry. I hate it and my mom took it lightly, my sis even said save tht money to buy my clothes. I KNOW I OVERTHINK and probably shdnt keep spending money for medical checks but the voice won’t be softer unless that happens…send help man really im in a more well known sec sch too m I have expectations for myself but ic ant when I have to keep dealing w these horrifying voices in my head. im very tired.
Hi there,
I can really sense how scared and overwhelmed you are feeling right now, and I just want you to know it’s completely okay to feel this way. It sounds like you have been carrying a lot on your own, and when we hold things in like that, it can make everything feel even heavier.
One reason you might be feeling this intense fear is because you do not have all the medical knowledge to make sense of what you are experiencing and that uncertainty can easily spiral into anxiety. It’s human nature to assume the worst when we are unsure. Our minds are just trying to protect us, but sometimes they go into overdrive.
It might be helpful to get a second opinion from a doctor, not only to check the physical symptoms but also to help calm your thoughts. What feels alarming to you might actually be something minor, and hearing that from a trusted professional can bring real peace of mind.
A few things that may also help ease the anxiety:
- Speaking with a doctor: Not just about your physical symptoms, but also to share your worries and how it’s affecting your daily life.
- Talking to a mental health professional: They can help you understand what’s going on and teach you ways to manage the anxiety.
- Limiting symptom-searching online: It often does more harm than good.
- Keeping a worry journal: Writing helps you notice patterns and create space from the thoughts.
You are not alone in feeling like this, and reaching out like you did is already a strong step forward.
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I used to have very bad anxiety but not health related. Would be best to get a therapist and help u via cognitive behavioural therapy. It helps with decreasing ur doomsday thinking. Helped me
Hi there,
understand that you are feeling scared and it’s normal. This is also due to the fact that you lost your grandfather and this becomes a fear in you.
While we can’t control or know what will happen to us, we can control how we handle and manage it 
The best you can do is to get it check, and do what you can, be happy because you have a long run way to go and the best we can do is to take action to improve the situation 
hey… thank you for being so open. reading your post, I can feel how loud and overwhelming the fear is for you right now. like your body is on full alert even before your mind can catch up.
what you’re going through isn’t stupid. it’s real. not because something is medically wrong—but because your brain is trying to protect you the best way it knows how. but sometimes… it overreacts, like an alarm going off even when there’s no fire.
losing people you care about… that leaves a wound. it makes our mind connect dots where maybe there aren’t any—but to you, it feels like certainty. and that fear? it grows, especially when no one around seems to get it.
I hear you when you say you’re tired. when crying feels like all you can do, and school just becomes this huge impossible thing. and when people around brush it off, it can feel like your pain is invisible.
you’re not weak. your nervous system’s just been on overdrive for too long. it needs some care too. not more fighting it—but learning to understand it, gently.
can I ask—what usually helps you feel even a little calmer, even if just for a minute? maybe we can start from there. you’re not alone in this.
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i like watching shows n dramas n sometimes it takes my mind off such worries but I can’t keep watching them I have exams this yr and everyone seems to be studying sm
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and also ik I should probably seek professional help but it’s so expensive in SG, if my parents alr think it’s ridiculous to spend sm on the random GP doc checks that I go to, why wld they spend on therapy 
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Hello @chickenisme
Thank you for being so vulnerable in sharing your concerns. It definitely sounds like it’s been bothering you a lot. Actually one misconception that a lot of youths/ young people have is that therapy is expensive but actually there are many organisations that provide pro bono or heavily subsidized therapy.
You can start finding resources here: https://mindline.sg/youth/mental-health-service-providers/start
Alternatively: Singapore recently launched a national mental health helpline and textline service where you can actually get wayfinding assistance and referrals to suitable support services, ranging from digital self-help platforms to professional mental healthcare providers and community support groups.
It offers three convenient ways for the public to seek help and support on mental health:
i. Telephone hotline by dialling 1771;
ii. Mobile messaging service via WhatsApp at +65-6669-1771; and
iii. Online webchat through the chat widget hosted on mindline.sg website (https://mindline.sg/fsmh)
If you require a space to get away from home or school, there is actually an integrated wellness centre at Scape called grovve, it’s currently closed for maintenance but will reopen this Saturday. It’s opened from Mondays to Saturdays, 11am to 8pm.
You can find out more at https://mindline.sg/grovve
** They have a concierge that provides a listening ear and can refer you to mental health resources like counselling.
It can feel very overwhelming to struggle with anxiety but you don’t have to struggle alone, I hope you would consider the resources. Rooting for you and all the best for Os. Take care.
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