Hi, i know of this mental health conditions where theres a voice in my head. I am suspecting I am having one although i am not officially diagnosed ( likewise for my depression and anxiety- suspect have but nv get a diagnosis and medication due to many concerns and worries/ reasons). The reason why I suspecting I have Schizophrenia is because I am often having internal voices in my head and is distracting as it is persistent. I often time tell myself to “stop thinking” but i cant even stay silent for 5 seconds… Like there wil be thoughts consistently and is really making me feel crazy as i am constantly engaging a conversation with this voice… Even though i challenged myself to not think 5 mins, it did not work. Sometimes i just hope i can stare blankly. On top of this, i might suspect i have OCD as well because once my thought process get distracted, I tend to repeat my thoughts until i am satisfied or when it is completed… Worse case, i can repeat for 15 mins… Is just little distractions like a small burp will result in me repeating whole of my thoughts from scratch or if i write it down, as long as i am distracted ( such as typing 1 wrong letter) I will delete the whole paragraph and rewrite. A burp is a small distraction, i have got worse kind which i feel crazy to share about.
So how has this been affecting me? I realise i am having serioud headaches and is making my anxiety worse as well. I feel my physical health is becoming worse and it worries me as i finally is starting my career after a two year break and i am afraid these health matters will be a hinder to my career. But I cant help but to have tots in my mind and my tots runs super fast…
So is this a sign? I feel is getting worse as years past. I wanna seek medical help but i am afraid that it will impact negatively on my career but at the same time I feel that and I kinda regretted not seeking medical help or get diagnosed earlier when i was a teen, like during my late 10s or early 20s or even during my 2 years break most recently … This problem has been with me for years but i am afraid because of the stigma as well as many other concerns as well back then… Is it a high time for me to seek help?( i am seeing a professional counselor tho)
I think u need help from a psychiatrist n therapist. Urs sounds very serious. The longer u dont seek help, the worse it will get and its not something u can figure out urself
I appreciate your sharing of the knowledge and awareness of the mental health challenges you are experiencing. I am sorry to learn that you were tormented by a series of symptoms since your teenage days. You are mindful about how these symptoms have left you in a chaotic state of mind. You have considered to seek medical support but worried about the stigma of having a mental illness diagnosis.
Though many people might have different experiences of being diagnosed with mental disorder, but the objective of diagnosis is mainly to help doctors, patients and caregivers to work on treatment/intervention plans that can help the patients to treat/alleviate the symptoms of the specific diagnoses.
Schizophrenia has symptoms that are disturbing and can cause confusions, and disordered thinking. Experts have good prognoses of helping schizophrenic patients to reduce the psychotic symptoms by using a variety of antipsychotic medications, so many patients can remain employed and have healthy relationships. Past records show that many schizophrenic patients’ conditions are well controlled with a combination of medications and psychotherapy. Leaving the mental illness untreated may lead to a possibility of comorbidity. Thus, it is really important for you to act on the wisdom you have longed developed, i.e the thought of seeking medical help !
You mentioned that “I kinda regretted not seeking medical help…. during my 10s, 20s, during last 2 yrs break…”. Imagine nothing changes, what would you think/feel about yourself in 2yrs from now ?
Hey @Depressedlife, I can understand your hesitance in seeking medical help and getting a diagnosis aka being labelled. Would it be less scary for you to visit a GP (as opposed to IMH or hospitals)? There are some GPs who are mental health trained and they may be able to give you some advice. This directory of mental health trained GPs may be helpful - https://mindline.sg/mental-health-service-providers/browse?category=gp. I hope you will find some courage to seek help and to also get support from those around you in this journey, be it at work or in your personal life.
Thank you for this information. May i ask if public institutions like public hospitals do they operate consultations on saturday? As much as i wanna go but i am still on probation
Hello as I understand, it is better to go to a Polyclinic first to assess your needs and they will refer you to a public hospital if needed. You will be able to get subsidised care this way. Polyclinics are open for half day on sat and some of them have mental health services which they can refer you to. You can make an appointment to your preferred Polyclinic through the HealthHub App.