Nothing traumatic event happened to me. I’m just sad since young. Although when i hang out with my friends, i do genuinely feel happy and the feeling of saddness goes away. but it always comes back. sometimes its so bad that i just want to rot in my bed but noone really question why because i would still get my things done. i just assume that maybe i was just bored. but is it really normal? to feel such sadness and pain when nothing bad is going on. i just want to be back the motivated person who has energy to do everything. its not like i think about negative things all the time, i try to find joy in everything. do i need help? or i just got to exercise more, journal, hang out with friends.. but what if i cant unless i really force myself to
Thank you reaching out.
I feel it is understandable that you are trying to figure out what has been affecting you and contributing to the feeling of persistent sadness. I believe you must be very exhausted pushing through the sadness for a very long time.
A few things that I suggest which may genuinely help:
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having a proper routine even when motivation is low
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sleeping consistently
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reducing doomscrolling/comparison online
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spending time outside or moving your body a little daily
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talking honestly to someone you trust instead of always saying “I’m fine”
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therapy/counselling, especially if these feelings keep returning. You can call the national mindline at 1771 to initiate a conversation with a counsellor as a first step. The hotline operates 24/7 and the counsellors can refer you to available resources to follow up.
I have observed that healing can start even when we feel unmotivated. You fully deserve support to get you through this persistent sadness and reclaim your well being 
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