Have another update to make. I’ve read through all the comments and really am thankful for the support I just really don’t know how to respond to this. I don’t wanna tell her about it because god knows what she’ll do next if I do and I just don’t wanna ruin the relationship my mum and dad have. It’s just that sometimes I can’t tell if my mum’s purposely trying to let me know about her relationship with other men or she’s just plain stupid. Why is she narrating every single text with him out loud when I’m there. It gets to the point where I just don’t want to care about the consequences and just lash out on her because it upsets and angers me so so much. I really don’t wanna deal with this. I’ve been acting so rude towards her nowadays and I feel so bad but I just don’t know how to react. I don’t wanna face her anymore. I just can’t think of her as a mother anymore. Don’t get me wrong I still love the memories but right now? Idk anymore 
My dad’s temper has been out the roof lately and it’s just been a scary place at home. Might be exaggerating haha. I’m just so exhausted from school and home. I have so much assignments to catch up on and so many projects upcoming. I feel like I’m doing everything wrong. I wanna tell my older brother about this but we never had that close relationship to talk about these things. It’s so awkward around him and I have a feeling he lowkey hates me lol so I’ve never spoken up about anything. Never told my friends too since I feel like it’s too personal and I don’t wanna burden them.
Hi OP,
I’ve just read your previous post about your situation. I’m sorry you’re going through such a turbulent situation where you have little support system. It seems that you feel suffocated and don’t have the space to be yourself in your own home.
I want to say that you are not at fault in this situation, and it is not your responsibility to take care of your parents’ problems. Your mum is the parent and adult here, but she cannot take on the responsibility as one. Please focus on yourself, your school works, or whatever you are passionate in. I underline again, you are not expected to solve your parents’ problems. You are the child, you are not a parent.
I understand that confusing turmoil of feeling bad for lashing out to your mum, because that’s what I’ve been dealing with a few years ago with my mum. Long story short, distancing myself from my mum and getting medicated helped to stabilize myself. However, I understand that you may not have the financial means to distance yourself from your home. Perhaps you can seek help from a school counsellor or from mental health support resources available if you do not have any trusted individuals in your community. You can also do your school works or anything you need to do outside of home so that you can give yourself a bit of break.
Hey @user0943. It sounds incredibly painful to be caught between love for your mum and the hurt from what you’re noticing. That push and pull of still cherishing past memories but struggling to see her the same way now is very real. I also hear the loneliness in not being able to turn to your brother or friends. That can feel incredibly isolating. The fact that you feel bad about lashing out shows how much you actually care about the relationship, even if right now it feels fractured.
Sometimes anger is our way of saying “this really matters to me, and it feels like a boundary is being crossed.” It doesn’t make you a bad child, it just means you’re human and reacting to something that feels unfair and overwhelming. You’re handling way more than anyone should have to at your age.
You’re not alone in this, even if it feels that way. When everything is piling up, be it school, family or emotions, sometimes the best thing you can do is just breathe and take one tiny step at a time. Even just setting aside a few minutes for yourself, doing something that makes you feel grounded, is already a win.
You’ve already shown courage in writing here and being honest about what’s going on inside. That same courage might one day help you take a small step toward reaching out in real life when it feels right. But maybe for now, you can continue to write here, an outlet for you to express yourself rather than letting it pile up within.
You’re doing your best, and that is enough for today. Sending a little virtual hug your way 
Dear @user0943
Thank you reaching out here on updating us about the challenging situation at home with your parents. I am hearing that dad has been becoming more hot tempered, and mom has been openly texting other men with flirtatious messages. It is understandable that you are finding both behaviours distressing.
May I check if there a trusted family elder who you can confide in and who can speak to your parents individually and with compassion to find out what’s going on; and what is affecting them. Your parents’ behaviours suggests they are themselves going through some challenges.
I can also see you are a responsible person; and someone who cares deeply for your family. This includes your mom’s wellbeing. The push and pull you feel towards your mother is valid, I see there is both gratitude and concern about her behaviour as some of it may put her in harm’s way.
Unfortunately this chaos at home has also been affecting your own wellbeing, school work and as a result you feel a loss of control. If you can, please speak to a school counsellor soon to process and make sense of what is happening. Your wellbeing is a priority too so do chat with the counsellor on how you can slowly get back on track and learn strategies to navigate the challenges before you as healthily as possible.
What you are going through is indeed hard and complex, so I recommend focusing on improving areas you have direct control over as a priority. Please reach out here for support, too whenever needed. 
Hello @user0943 thank you so much for opening up and sharing something so deeply personal. I can only imagine how heavy all of this must feel for you right now. It sounds like you’re carrying a lot. Confusing feelings toward your mum, a tense home environment, school stress, and feeling isolated on top of it all. That’s an incredibly tough place to be in, and I want to acknowledge just how strong you are for managing all of this the best you can.
It makes total sense that you’re feeling overwhelmed, frustrated, even angry. Anyone in your position would feel the same. And the fact that you still feel guilty for how you’ve reacted toward your mum shows how big your heart is. You clearly care, even when things feel so broken right now.
You mentioned feeling scared at home and unsure of how to respond. If there’s any place, maybe a relative’s, a friend’s, or even somewhere like school or a public library, where you can get some space, even for a little while, it might help just to breathe and think clearly.
You also said you haven’t talked to your brother or friends because it feels too awkward or like you’d be a burden. I totally get that. But just remember you deserve support, too. You don’t have to carry this alone. If there’s a counsellor or trusted adult available to you, they can be someone to talk to safely without fear of judgment or fallout.
It’s okay to not have all the answers right now. You’re going through a lot, and you’re doing your best. Be kind to yourself when everything feels like it’s too much, you’re not failing.
You’re not alone in this. Please take things one step at a time. You’re doing more than enough just by making it through each day.