I’m in poly year 2, my grades are horrendous, little to no social interaction, even just recently I failed a paper that I never would have expected myself to fail. I tried so hard to change myself for the better, work harder go to the gym and such, after such news I feel so distraught. Even studying for the retest I still felt like I couldn’t have failed. My family atp I think have lost faith in me, they didn’t say much about it, I can’t blame them though I’ve never been a good student, but this time truly feels different, . I feel like a failure, my entire family has been successful in life compared to me. I can’t see myself getting better anymore, it’s a downward spiral.
Hey there, I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. What you’re describing sounds incredibly heavy, and it makes sense that you’re distraught, especially when you did try to change and still got hit with something so unexpected. Failing a paper doesn’t erase your effort or your worth, even if it feels like it does right now.
Feeling behind your family or like you’re “the failure” can be so painful, but this moment doesn’t define your whole life or who you’ll become. Downward spirals feel permanent when you’re inside them, but they aren’t.
The fact that you’re still trying by going to the gym, studying, and caring, already says a lot about you, even if you can’t see it now.
You’re not broken, and you’re not alone in this, even if it feels that way. It’s okay to take this one step, one day at a time!
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thanks for your affirmation, idk i just hate falling into the same pit i try to get out off, the cycle just kept repeating and i hated regretting and feeling sorry for myself and crying over the mistakes I shouldn’t have been making in the first place, I just don’t know how to keep myself moving at this point in time.
Hey there, I actually hear you. What hurts the most isn’t just failing but it’s falling back into the same place after you tried so hard to get out. That’s exhausting and really demoralising. Anyone would feel stuck and angry at themselves.
But the cycle repeating doesn’t mean you didn’t try or didn’t grow. It usually means you’re tired, not hopeless. Beating yourself up over “mistakes you shouldn’t have made” might just keep you in pain and prevent you from moving forward.
Right now, you don’t need to fix everything. “Moving” can be very small: get through today, do one manageable thing, and don’t tear yourself apart for feeling upset. You’re not broken, you’re just worn down.
You don’t have to do this alone!! If you want, we can think about one tiny next step together!
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