for a really long time, i feel really detached from my own life. for context, i am an 18 year old girl. i don’t feel impacted by anything and i don’t feel like i’m alive in the moment, it feels like i’m watching myself live my life and nothing really reaches me. for example, i’m already in my final and third year of my school and it felt like i wasn’t even in school. everyday that passes by is just a day to me, and it could be because nothing eventful happened, but even when it does for example having fun with friends and going to events, it doesn’t feel like anything. i’m in a relationship too and i love my boyfriend but i don’t feel the weight of the relationship and i get really detached. i really don’t know how to explain this how i’m feeling, it just feels like i took ‘nothing matters’ quite literally