Hi Marshmallow.yoghurt.
Thanks for sharing. The psychologist who attended to me did tell me about the stage of grief and mentioned that it is non-linear. I have gone through most of them with every passing and as you correctly mentioned, not all. Rarely the anger and bargaining. Talking to counsellors, psychologists and psychiatrists did help me sort out what was troubling me in my head, journalling, medication all helped here and there. Talking about it to them did feel good. And they were able to label some things that I was thinking and feeling.
Like most people, I do have feelings for every student, teacher or friend who passes away. It does well up to a point. I admit I feel sad. I admit that I feel lost. For all that I feel, it just simply doesn’t translate to tears. If tears are critical, I need a solution. I have watchd depressing movies, think depressing thoughts, attempting to cry. All failed. Reflex kicked in and it stops before it comes out.
Thanks for the suggestion of the fragment room. I did read about it a long while back and I think it might help to vent all the growing frustration that I have over this.