Im not sure what im feeling. I feel low everyday, moodless and want to withdraw from everything and everyone. I wish i was more outgoing like others and able to live my life but i cant. My trigger was work and now i feel inferior to others. I feel so separated from others too. I dont know why im alive. I hate myself for not being able to pull myself out of this. My cant stand my child seeing me this way. I dont know how to be better as a person.
Hey, just saying that I hear you. What you’re going through sounds really heavy, and it makes total sense that you’re feeling drained and unsure of how to even begin making sense of it. That kind of pain… the quiet kind that sits with you every day, pulling you away from the people and things you care about — it’s real, and it hurts.
You’re not alone in this, even though I know it feels so lonely. When life knocks the wind out of you, especially through something as personal as work, it can shake everything — your confidence, your sense of self, your hope. It’s okay if you haven’t figured out how to get back on your feet. That doesn’t make you weak or broken. It just means you’re human, and you’re tired.
The way you’re thinking about your child — that says a lot. It shows how deeply you care, even while you’re struggling. You’re still showing up, still thinking of them. That’s love. Not everyone can see how strong that is, but I want you to know I see it.
Please don’t try to carry all of this by yourself. There are people — good people — who are trained to sit with this kind of pain and help make sense of it. Reaching out to a therapist, or even calling a helpline when things feel too much, isn’t about giving up. It’s about giving yourself a chance to feel supported. Help is already waiting for you..will you call 1767 (SOS)?
And until then, maybe just be gentle with yourself today. Even if it’s just one small thing — like sitting in a quiet spot, having a warm drink, or taking one slow breath with your hand on your heart. That kindness matters. You’ve already taken such a brave step by saying all this out loud. That’s not small — that’s the beginning of something.
You matter. You’re not alone. I’m rooting for you, even from here.
You’re Not Alone
Millions of people experience depression, and many recover with the right support. It’s okay to feel stuck, but it’s also okay to ask for help. You’re already taking a step forward by acknowledging how you feel and seeking guidance. Keep going—you’re worth it.
Hey @Lostsoul , thank you for sharing—what you’re feeling is really heavy, and it takes a lot of strength to open up like this.
It sounds like you’re feeling low, disconnected, and hard on yourself, especially with work being a trigger. But just the fact that you care about how you’re feeling and how it affects your child shows how deeply you want things to be better. That’s a strength.
You’re not weak for feeling this way. You’re human, and you’re trying. Even reaching out here is a brave step forward. You don’t have to have it all figured out—healing takes time, and it can start with just being a little gentler with yourself.
You’re not alone. You matter, and you’re doing more than you realise just by being here.
On a side note, do you have any support pillars (e.g., spouse, family member, close friends) which you could lean on for the time being?
Hi @Lostsoul
Thank you for sharing. It sounds like you’re carrying an incredibly heavy emotional burden right now, and I hope you know that your feelings are valid. The exhaustion and sense of isolation you’re describing are deeply painful feelings, and it’s okay to acknowledge that. The fact that you’re reaching out, even just to express these emotions, shows strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. It’s important to remember that feeling “low” or “moodless” doesn’t mean you’re failing as a person, it might be a sign that you need support.
I hear how much you want to change, especially for your child, and that love for them shines through even in your pain. But please try to be kinder to yourself, you’re doing the best you can in a really tough moment. You don’t have to figure this out alone, and asking for help, whether through therapy, support groups, or even just sharing these feelings with someone you trust, is a brave and important step. I think that talking to a therapist would help you figure out your emotions. Stay strong and I’m rooting for you! 
-miloluvr
Hi, i dont confide in my friends because i dont want to appear like im always negative. Spouse - doesnt provide the emotional support i need or say much. Spouse also thinks im too negative.