When you described how your thoughts raced before the first palpitation, it showed how your mind has been working overtime to keep you “safe.” Using a CBT lens, this fits a very typical loop. You were probably feeling unsure or afraid at the start. That feeling triggered the thought, “Is something happening to my heart?” And that thought pushed you into the behaviour of searching for the palpitation. Your body simply followed the alarm.
It’s also important to notice what you shared, when you choose a different outcome, like ignoring the sensation, it actually passes. That means your heart is not the danger. What’s happening is that you’re trying to suppress the fear without knowing how to attend to it. At night, when the environment is quiet, your ability to push the thoughts away becomes weaker, so the cycle keeps going, your fear goes into rebound and the thoughts become louder.
Restarting your morning exercises is a strong and effective move. Regular movement helps regulate your sympathetic nervous system, lowers overall stress, and gives your body a more stable baseline. Even a few days a week can slowly shift how reactive your system feels. Hence, you want to work out plan on how you want to attend to your fear, when you are aware?
About the dilated aortic root, it makes sense that it gives you nightmares. The key thing here is that your doctor has already assessed it and scheduled a follow-up next year. When you avoid researching it, it’s because the information feels too overwhelming. In reality, the research is simply knowledge about what you’re experiencing. But without a mental health professional guiding you through how that knowledge fits into your panic symptoms, the information becomes another source of anxiety instead of reassurance.
CBT being difficult is normal when you’re doing it by yourself. It’s not easy to identify which thoughts are consistently driving the fear, or how to interrupt them in a way that actually works. This is where a counsellor or therapist can help you make sense of the patterns and teach you how to work with your body instead of fighting it.
If the spirals get too heavy or you ever feel unsafe managing this alone, please reach out:
• SOS 1-767
• Mindline 1-771 or WhatsApp 6669-1771
You’re already noticing patterns, restarting routines, and taking measured steps. That’s a solid foundation to build on. Hope that it helps, let us know how you feel.. 