Why do I feel cringe whenever I felt sadness? I started to blame myself every time Im disappointed. I pushed away lots of people in my life because I think I don’t worth their time. So I just left without any explanation. But I want people to be around me cause I feel happy whenever they’re around. But It feels like Im too dependent on other people’s presence, so I just try not to he happy. I don’t know how to talk, I feel like Im too desperate, so I’d rather dry text people.
Hi @user932
Thank you for sharing with us your thoughts, I hear you, and I want to acknowledge the courage it takes to share these feelings. It sounds like you’ve been going through a frustrating and emotional time, and it’s completely okay to feel the way you do. The experience of cringing at sadness and blaming yourself for disappointments can be really tough.
I can tell that you have a genuine desire for connection with others and a longing for their presence to bring happiness into your life, and everyone deserves to have these meaningful connections, including you.
I just want to encourage you that it’s also okay to ask for support when you need it. Feeling dependent on others can be uncomfortable, but seeking connection and support is a natural part of being human - we’re all wired for connection. It might be helpful to explore these feelings further, perhaps with the support of a friend, family member, or a professional who can help you process and understand these emotions.
I hear that you prefer texting, perhaps you could try these online options for a start?
- Limitless : Talk To Someone - Limitless
- CPH chat : https://www.cphonlinecounselling.sg/hc/en-us
- IMH CHAT : Home - CHAT
- ec2.sg : https://fycs.org/ec2-sg
Remember, it’s okay not to have all the answers right now, and you don’t have to walk this journey alone 
Let us know how you’re doing and how your online session went (when you do try it out!) We’ll wait to hear from you soon.