I feel like ■■■■■ I feel unwanted. I don’t know if this is a fake feeling or what but i ■■■■■■■ hate my life. I hate every second of it. I feel like a damn burden to my parents and friends, i slack at school, barely do my homework, i might annoy my friends too much because i send them too much messages, i play useless games all day 24/7 i hate it. I want to vanish from everything and everyone. I bet they don’t even care because i don’t matter to them. I don’t know what im doing. I want this all to end
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Hi @jdhdos
I can tell you’re really hurting, and I want you to know that it’s okay to feel this way. What you’re going through is tough, and I’m here to listen. Let’s talk about what you’ve shared, because I think there’s a lot we can unpack together.
You said you feel “unwanted” and like a “burden” to your parents and friends. That is an extremely burdensome emotion, and I can only imagine the extent to which it is affecting you. When you feel like you don’t matter to others, it can make everything else feel so much harder.
You mentioned slacking at school, not doing homework, and worrying that you annoy your friends by sending too many messages. It sounds like you’re holding yourself to a high standard and feeling guilty for not meeting it. But the fact that you care so much about these things—your schoolwork, your friendships—shows how much you value them, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now.
Playing games all day and saying you want to “vanish” tells me you’re looking for a way to numb the pain or get away from it. I get that. When things feel overwhelming, it’s natural to want to distract yourself or just disappear. But I also hear how much you hate feeling stuck in this cycle.
When you say things like “I want this all to end” or “I want to vanish,” it sounds like you’re feeling really hopeless right now. That’s a scary place to be, and I want you to know that you don’t have to stay there. There are ways to work through this, even if it doesn’t feel possible right now.
From what you’ve shared, it sounds like you are feeling depressed and possibly anxious. Depression can make you feel worthless, guilty, and hopeless, while anxiety can make you overthink and worry about how others see you. These feelings can feel overwhelming, but they don’t define you, and they don’t have to last forever. With the right support, you can start to feel better.
So many people feel this way at some point in their lives, even if they don’t talk about it. You’re not broken, and you’re not a burden. You’re a human being going through a really tough time, and that’s okay.
You wondered if your feelings are “fake,” but they’re real to you, and that’s what matters. Your pain is valid, and it’s important to acknowledge it instead of dismissing it.
The fact that you’re sharing this—even here—tells me there’s a part of you that wants to feel better. That part of you is worth listening to. You matter more than you can see right now.
You don’t have to fix everything at once. Start small. Maybe reach out to one person you trust and let them know how you’re feeling. Or consider talking to a counsellor or therapist who can help you work through these emotions.
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Talk to someone you trust:
- Sharing how you’re feeling with a friend, family member, or mentor can help you feel less alone. You might be surprised by how much they care.
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Reach out to a professional:
- A therapist or counsellor can help you understand these feelings and give you tools to manage them. If you’re in school, there might be resources available through your school counsellor.
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Be kind to yourself:
- Try to treat yourself with the same kindness you’d show a friend who was struggling. You’re doing the best you can right now, and that’s enough.
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If it feels too overwhelming:
- If these feelings become too much, please reach out to a crisis hotline or text line in your area. They can provide immediate support and help you stay safe.
You are not defined by these feelings, and they don’t have to control your life forever. Healing is possible, and it starts with reaching out for help. You are worthy of love, care, and support, even if it doesn’t feel that way right now. Please take the first step toward getting the help you deserve—you don’t have to do this alone. We are here to listen, and we care about what happens to you.
heyy that really sounds like a lot you’re going through… i’ve been there and i get how hard it is to get things done or go about life… its okay to prioritise your needs right now and focus more on school when you’re more able to! what’s most important is your wellbeing
i kinda understand how it is to feel like a burden or that no one cares… it’s hard to accept or know that people care but regardless of whether it feels like people care you are important and your needs and feelings matter (though i do feel your friends and family very likely care a lot)
i know it is hard but i hope you can be kinder to yourself 
it really is not easy and you have a lot of courage for reaching out and trying