Ok apparently im not done. Im separating different topics in different posts to not make it feel like a mouthful.
Omg. So abt 2-3 wks ago. I met this new friend frm a mutual friend. Pretty chill at firsy… Just had some problems with his humor… Then me and the mutual friend, zaza (why not), we got into an argument about MY sis. Its rly personal so im. Not gna go into details. But basically, i found out my sis did some ■■■■ stuff. And i was panicking on what to do and i got into an argument with zaza because zaza only looks at the smaller picture. And i keep trying to ask zaza to look at the bigger picture. Cause this issue is HUGE. I don’t want ti ruin my sis social life likw that. And hours later after talking to more trusted people, i realised i was somewhat in the wrong. And apologized to zaza and made compromise about zaza’s initial plan. Zaza is petty as hell. Zaza didn’t accept the apology. Its ok fine. It just gets worse. That thing cant even act like ■■■■ was fine infront of that friend, pouty. Pouty eventually gets involved cause its both me and zaza being involved. Pouty made it WORSE. now zaza thinks he has to act like my boyfriend. Ew btw. Ik i have baf taste in guys. But i wont date someone who makes being emotionally dense thwir whole damn personality. Anyways the next day, zaza sent me a whole ■■■ para. Full of PEEL format (good for ss igs) and FULL of contradictions. And zaza keeps pointing out my flaws. Geez change isn’t a lenier thing. At least im trying to change and not make exploding easily my whole personality. But ya. Then me and pouty got “closer”. Basically pouty forcing me to call every nigjt. Its hard to say no… (you’ll know later). I get that pouty has golden retriever energy but damn. That’s the WORST ive ever seen. I gor soo uncomfortable with pouty. I tried setting boundaries. Im ok with alot of stuff with opposite gender friends btw… But pouty keeps going like “mwah” or “pats head” or wtv cringe stuff to me. I keep cringing, saying ew, and asking him to stop. Time and time again, he thought of it as a joke. You’re definitely screaming at me to jusy leave the fs. No i cant… I missed out ine info from when pouty was helping me and zaza. It was soo overwhelming for me that i just broke down and spilled my whole year to pouty just like that. And pouty stayed up till 2am and got sick the next day. That insane guilt got to me. So I tried to salvage the fs. So wrong of me. It was soo uncomfortable for me that i got SCARED even Going on discord and insta (the 2 platforms he has my acc on). There was once, i couldn’t call him (i lied that i am busy..) and when he saw me online at 12 am not sleeping, he spam called me. It was INSANE on my ipad that i had to text my friend on WhatsApp instead. OH also when i tried setting boundaries, he’ll just go “please please please please please” or POUTS. hence the name pouty. Ya. And as days goes by it got worse. Pouty kept trying to one up my problems. When i say “my ex sent me the address of imh cause he thought it was funny” (its real btw) he goes “well my ex told me to forget abiut her”… I didn’t want to say anything cause the guilt. And that guy is FRAGILE. i thought i was bad. But damn. Hes like a champagne glass WAITING to be shattered. Hes THAT fragile. So i had to be REALLY careful of what tto say. The thing with zaza got so bad that zaza started over exaggerating and spreading my old ■■■■. It is VERY baf btw. He phrased it saying i committed a crime. No i did not. That was how bad the overexaggeration was. I went to pouty and jusy spilled everything about zaza to pouty. Pouty sais “i know zaza for 8 yrs he wouldn’t do this”. Pouty isnt even in the same sec sch as zaza. People CHANGE. But pouty kept downplaying my situation and kept trying to make it as if we’re on the same boat ( WE ARENT). It was soo bad that i just went “youre fcking manipulative and delusional” and blocked pouty. Btw zaza was MAD no one believed his lies… For now. I KNOW to what extent zaza can go. My sch ppl are BRUTAL. They can ruin your life inside and out and still look and act all innocent. I actually fear my whole safety in this school now.
I CAN report zaza for the insane defamation and what nit to the teachers. I have the evidence. The thing is… If it gets bad, it’ll involve my ex. I NEED to talk to my ex ti make sure we’re on the same page. I tried asking to talk to him like a normal person. His petty ■■■ wins.he didn’t even come to meet me at all. 
Idek what to do anym