Hi @user6576,
It sounds like you’re in a difficult place right now, caught between your past work habits and the frustration of feeling stuck. I hear the confusion and frustration you have when trying to reconcile your previous drive with your current state of procrastination.
I understand that it’s frustrating to feel like you’re not living up to your potential, especially when you’ve proven before that you can do the work. It’s important to acknowledge that this isn’t about being lazy; it’s about recognising the internal shift you’re experiencing, and it’s okay to feel disoriented by it. You’ve been working really hard for a long time, and it’s understandable that some part of you might need a break, even if it feels confusing.
You’re not alone in feeling like this, and I want to reassure you that it’s okay to have moments of struggle. You’re experiencing what many people go through when they face burnout or feel emotionally drained. It’s important to be gentle with yourself right now and not add to the pressure you’re already feeling. You’re not defined by this moment.
It might help to start by taking small steps to get back on track. Can you identify a simple task you can accomplish today, even if it’s something small? Setting a small goal might help you regain a sense of control. Also, have you been able to explore what’s going on emotionally outside of work? Sometimes, our emotional stress can affect our ability to stay motivated, and understanding those feelings can help us address them more effectively.
I can hear how much you want to work through this and regain your sense of momentum. It might also help to talk through these feelings with someone—whether it’s a friend, a counsellor, or a therapist. Having support can make a huge difference in times like this.
If you’re open to it, consider reflecting on when these feelings of procrastination and frustration first started. Have there been any changes in your work or personal life recently that might be influencing how you feel? Exploring these questions could give us more clarity on how to address your feelings of stagnation.
You’ve already shown great strength in recognising this challenge. With the right tools and support, you can begin to take steps toward moving past this block, one small step at a time. Remember, progress isn’t always linear, but every step forward counts.
Take care of yourself, and don’t hesitate to reach out for help when you need it. You’re not alone in this journey.