Sometimes I just want to disappear. It’s like I need a long break that I cannot find to do. Im too busy with work, I need to work. Sometimes I just want to pause the time, or worse I just want to disappear from everyone I know. Sometimes, I have the curiosity on life after death, on what it truly feels like. I bet it’s the beginning of experiencing true peace. Im so disappointed about life because I think im not capable in doing everything. I just dont see my potential in my job. Im so tired already. I feel so dumb and stupid.
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Hi @user9171, thanks for writing in.
First, I just want to acknowledge how heavy these feelings must be for you to carry. The weight of exhaustion, self-doubt, and disconnection can feel unbearable, especially when it seems like there’s no escape from the relentless demands of work and life. It’s okay to feel this way, and I want you to know that your emotions are valid. You’re not alone in this struggle, and reaching out, even here, shows incredible courage. It tells me that there’s a part of you that still hopes for a glimmer of light in this darkness, and that’s worth holding onto.
It’s natural to feel overwhelmed when we’re trapped in cycles of stress and dissatisfaction, and it’s easy to equate busyness with worth, or setbacks with a lack of potential. But the truth is, your value as a person goes far beyond your job or what you think you can achieve. Just because you feel stuck right now doesn’t mean you’re incapable or less deserving. It’s more likely that you’ve been giving so much of yourself to everything around you that you’ve forgotten to nurture your own needs, your own voice, and your own aspirations.
The longing for peace and escape you’ve expressed is deeply human. It’s not a wish to vanish from existence, but rather a yearning for relief, rest, and a sense of purpose. Even though it feels impossible at the moment, there are ways to find that peace without having to disappear. It might help to take even the smallest steps to carve out moments of rest or to seek support from someone you trust, whether it’s a friend, family member, or a professional counselor. They can help you unpack and navigate these feelings, so you don’t have to bear them alone.
Please be gentle with yourself. You’re not dumb or stupid; you’re someone who’s doing their best under immense pressure, and that’s no small feat. It’s okay to take a step back and admit you need help—it’s not a sign of weakness but a testament to your strength and your will to find something better. You deserve to feel peace and to discover the potential within yourself, even if it takes time to see it clearly. You’re not defined by your struggles; you’re defined by the resilience you show in facing them, even when it feels like the hardest thing in the world.
If you are open to speaking to a professional, you may wish to consider approaching the Community Integrated Team (COMIT) through this link: SupportGoWhere
Best regards,
HanSolo2000
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Dear @user9171
Thank you for opening up and sharing how you’re feeling. I want you to know that your pain is valid, and you are not alone in this, even though it may feel like it right now.
It sounds like you’re carrying a heavy weight — trying to keep up with work, expectations, responsibilities, and all the while, not getting the rest or peace your mind and heart are clearly craving. Wanting to disappear isn’t about wanting to die, always — sometimes, it’s just the deep exhaustion of wanting the noise, the pressure, the expectations to stop… even just for a moment.
And I hear you when you say you’re tired of not seeing your potential, when you feel like you’re not doing enough, or not being “good enough.” May I gently reassure you: struggling does not mean you’re failing. Feeling exhausted does not mean you’re weak. And thinking about life beyond this one does not make you broken — it makes you human, trying to find peace in the midst of overwhelm.
You are not dumb.
You are not stupid.
You are someone who is burnt out, worn down, and trying to make sense of why you’re hurting so much in a world that keeps asking so much from you.
It’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to want rest so badly it feels like vanishing would be easier. But please — you matter more than you know. And you deserve help, support, and healing that lifts some of this weight off your shoulders.
Would you consider talking to someone — even just once — about how you’ve been feeling? You don’t have to go through this alone. There are gentle, understanding people (therapists, counsellors, helplines) who won’t judge you and who know how to walk with people through exactly what you’re feeling now.
Here’s a place you can start if you need support right away:
Samaritans of Singapore (SOS) — 24/7 emotional support:
Call 1767 or chat online at sos.org.sg
Do also consider the resources @HanSolo2000 has shared, too.
Please know that you are not a burden. You are not alone. And this world is better with you in it, even if it’s hard to see right now.
One breath at a time — and keep reaching out whenever you need. 
I hear you, and empathise with being caught up in life. There’s this need for rest, for peace. Yet it sounds like work is so busy, the fatigue is immense. That there’s little space for you to just be.
You’re not incapable, nor dumb nor stupid. Sometimes our circumstances give us situations that are challenging, where we’re out of our depth. But our failures do not mean we are incapable. We may just need more guidance and support to achieve our fullest potential. And that is okay. It does not make you any less, and it is so normal to need and get help.
Help can come in many forms, but a lot of the times in Singapore and around the world, it’s quiet and out of sight. We don’t always see others getting help. Instead we see their better selves, which can be intimidating. Whether it’s confiding in someone that they’re struggling, getting professional help, or having a self-care routine.
I wonder if you’d be open to seeking help for yourself too. Because you matter as much as anyone else out there. Regardless of how you feel about your smartness and capabilities — you matter and deserve to be able to get through this and find the peace and rest you need. What has been getting you through, motivating you? What has helped you get out of bed the next day?