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I have nobody and nothing to live for. Im a poly yr1 student but havent gone to school yet. my poly gave me a choice to defer for a while to focus on my mental health. But my parents think im just lazy and a parasite. I rwally want to end it all. I domt know what to do. No one to turn to. Nothing to pook forward to. If i suffer every day and am a burden i might as well die.

I don’t want to be a burden anymore
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My family really thinks im a loser parasite. I haven’t gone to poly yet as a yr 1. I have no one, and nothing to look forward to. I don’t know how to continue. please I need to talk to someone

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Dear @tranquilnarwhal2741

I am thankful you reached out. Firstly please know that you are not alone. Reading your post I can see that what you are bearing right now sounds very overwhelming. I gather you are feeling stuck and understandably everything seems pointless. I gather the situation feels worse as your parents are not fully realising the severity of your mental health condition. But the fact that your poly offered a deferment clearly shows your current condition is being taken seriously as a mental health issue, not laziness.

When your mind says “I have nobody and nothing,” I believe these types of negative thoughts are the inevitable result of the deep pain you are currently in. This pain is likely disrupting your outlook and how you perceive things around you.

I recommend to loosen the grip of these negative thoughts on you, observe them from a distance and recognise that they are just thoughts not facts and certainly not the full truth. Be kind to yourself and let these thoughts come and go like a radio chattering away in the background, while you carry out actions aligned to your values. Do try out this technique as it can reduce distress caused.

I am concerned about the thoughts you are having about ending your life. You do not have to face these alone, even if it feels like you do right now. Please reach out immediately to counsellors manning these hotlines (they operate 24/7):

  • Samaritans of Singapore at 1767

  • National Mindline at 1771

I believe taking the first step of speaking to a counsellor who does not judge you will be helpful as you work towards improving your mental health and preparing to resume your poly course.

For the present moment, please may I encourage you to keep things very small and manageable. Just focus on getting through this moment. Try to stay somewhere a bit safer, or around other people if possible. If your thoughts feel intense, grounding yourself can help a little, such as holding something cold or slowly naming things you can see and hear.

You are clearly not a parasite. I see in you someone who is genuinely struggling and needs support. You fully deserve to get better so please try out my recommendations soonest.

Meanwhile may I check if you are safe at this moment?:yellow_heart: