i hate everytime i tried speaking up they have to scold,like can they ■■■■■■■ shut up and listen and actually follow their promises once and not yell about this aint a zoo this is a HOUSE. All i want is a break from my studies and O levels and step outside once to have fun,its literally not my idea to go out in the first place,the place they wanted to bring me and my siblings along literally have an arcade(yes i like arcades) and i rlly want to take a break even though i wasnt rlly prepared for my biology and art exam a few days later,ik its my fault for nvr trying hard enough but can they actually ■■■■■■■ open their eyes and see how hard im trying not to kill myself at the same time while trying to get a friendgroup in school (i suspect people avoid me cuz im introverted and cry a lot + i used to self harm)
all i want is an understanding parent,not animals yelling in my face every single ■■■■■■■ day,im even trying to not kill myself atp and im only 16,why do i alr have thoughts on ending myself at primary school,why do i have so many attempts,why do i cry a lot everyday,why do i need so many counsellors and therapists,all i want is to be seen as a human not an dead living thing
and istg if anyone attacks me for being rude to my parents fyi i do NOT treat people with respect especially when they hit and lock me up in rooms as punishment and im also not their fav child atp they dont see me as their child
had an argument with my father since he finds me ´slow´ and not hardworking enough even though im juggling school NATIONAL art exam while studying anf staying alive at the same time (i tried explaining nicely but ofc he is yelling) and shits still not solved its been months but idgaf
secondary school was the most depressing time of my life. life is much more easier after Os. The nonsensical academic stress by the education system is going to be over soon. I would advice u to go poly for a course that u will like. Strict parents must be horrible to have. why aren’t ur therapists n counsellors working? Friendships is a give n take situation so u gotta provide something in a friendship, unfortunately, so u will probably have more frens when u have recovered from ur negative thoughts. I’ve attempted before n will tell u not to do that cuz is really painful. Feel free to chat
hey @userrr87398 i’m sorry to hear that you’re going through this i get how horrible it feels to not be understood or even heard and to always get shot down whenever you try to stand up for yourself… you don’t deserve to get yelled at or disrespected by your parents like that. i hear how hard you’re working and trying to manage so many things at once, you deserve a break and to do something that makes you happy or helps you relax.
please know that you deserve to be here and you deserve to be loved.
even though most counsellors tried addressing my issues to my parents they wouldnt listen so i decided not to go for anymore counselling and yea i plan to go to poly through eae
Thank you for opening up about what you’re feeling right now; it takes a lot of courage to share everything that’s been weighing on you. I can hear the frustration and anger from not being listened to, and it makes sense that it would be upsetting to feel like every time you speak up, you’re met with arguments or dismissals. You’re juggling so much between studies, exams, and managing your mental health, and all while just wanting a break to feel like yourself again.
Feeling misunderstood and overlooked, especially by the people who are supposed to support you, is deeply painful. It’s clear you’re trying so hard, even just to hold it all together. These feelings you have are valid, and wanting to be seen as a person with feelings, rather than feeling invisible, is something everyone deserves. You’re not alone in this, and you’re doing what you can with everything on your plate, even if it doesn’t feel like it’s enough.
I am sure that you’d find ways to let out some of the anger and frustration you’re feeling—ways that allow you to feel heard without it leading to arguments or feeling dismissed. Sometimes when emotions feel overwhelming, it can help to break them down, even if it feels exhausting to try. For now, let’s take things one step at a time. Would it help to talk more about what’s happening day-to-day, even just to find small ways to get through?
And remember, reaching out like this shows a lot of strength, even when things feel too much.
i get how horrible it feels to not be understood or even heard and to always get shot down whenever you try to stand up for yourself… you don’t deserve to get yelled at or disrespected by your parents like that. i hear how hard you’re working and trying to manage so many things at once, you deserve a break and to do something that makes you happy or helps you relax.