what do i do everyday i feel like crying for no reason at all, i feel like im just living through it i have no motivation to do homework i have no motivation to shower or sleep i’ll just drag it until the last minute i don’t know if im just lazy or what. Everyday i feel like im just disassociating from everything , everyday i come back from school and i just feel so so so like alone even if i have friends to talk to. I’d laugh with them but feel like a sense of loneliness idk idk idk . My friends would just ask me if i’m okay but i’ll feel so embarrassed to tell them anything
Hey @resilientpeony59, thank you for reaching out!
It honestly takes a lot of courage to put all these feelings into words, even when they’re so hard to make sense of 
Whatever you’re going through sounds incredibly exhausting…and carrying that heaviness day in day out while just going through the motions and laughing with friends while feeling that hollow loneliness within…that’s a lot to hold on your own! I’d like to gently say that what you’re feeling isn’t you just “being lazy” or anything, okay? Sometimes when our motivation levels drop, when basic things like showering or sleeping feel like too much effort is required, or when you feel disconnected from yourself and those around you…those are signs that something deeper is going on, and that deserves attention, not judgement!
And the embarrassment you feel about opening up to friends makes complete sense too! It’s vulnerable to let people see that side of you, esp when you’re not even sure how to explain it yourself.
I’m curious about how long you’ve been feeling this way, and if something happened that you think might be connected to this?
In the interim, if you’d like to speak to someone, you can always reach out to National Mindline 1771, okay? You can call them at 1771/whatsapp them at 66691771. They are available 24/7!