I know im wrong. Like when i say something it sounds so wrong and like i didnt mean it like that but at the same time i also dont know what i mean but i know what i said was wrong. I feel like i push people away and that what i say is always wrong or the way i interpret it. I also feel like i get angry and triggered too easily and it makes me lash out and it pushes people away. When i express how i feel about something, the way i word it and say it us always wrong so then like people will think im weird and an know it all. I know its wrong but i dont know how to tell people that. I just feel like im pushing people away but i know its my fault. I dont know i probably sound crazy right now. Its hard to explain how i feel. Sometimes i honeslty think i’ve lost my mind but then itll be fine the next day and i alwasy gaslight myself saying that its just a moment of anger but it has happened lots of times that a part of me knows that its not just a moment of anger but i dont know what to do.
Hi @user1586
Thank you for coming forward with what your challenges are. I think it’s very courageous of you that you’re acknowledging your feelings and willing to work on yourself. It takes a lot of self awareness to admit when we’re struggling.
It sounds like you’re experiencing a mix of emotions, including anxiety, anger, and self-doubt. You might be feeling like you’re walking on eggshells, worried that you’ll say or do something wrong.
Firstly, please know that you’re not alone in feeling this way. Many people struggle with similar emotions and concerns.
Here are some potential underlying issues that might be contributing to your feelings:
- Low self-esteem: You might be struggling with negative self-talk, self-doubt, and a fear of being judged or rejected.
- Anxiety and stress: You may be experiencing high levels of anxiety and stress, which can lead to feelings of overwhelm and anger.
- Communication challenges: You might be struggling to express yourself effectively, leading to feelings of frustration and self-doubt.
- Past experiences or trauma: Unresolved past experiences or trauma can contribute to feelings of anxiety, anger, and self-doubt.
To start working on these issues, consider the following steps:
- Practice self-compassion: Treat yourself with kindness, understanding, and patience. Remind yourself that everyone makes mistakes and that it’s okay not to be perfect.
- Seek support: Talk to a trusted friend, family member, or mental health professional about your feelings and concerns. They can offer you support, guidance, and new perspectives.
- Develop healthy communication skills: Learn effective communication techniques, such as active listening, assertiveness, and expressing yourself clearly and respectfully. This is another area your counsellor can coach you on. Attending Skills Future courses could be another avenue.
- Engage in stress-reducing activities: Regularly practice stress-reducing activities, such as exercise, meditation, or deep breathing exercises, to help manage your anxiety and stress levels.
- Consider therapy or counselling: A mental health professional can help you work through underlying issues, develop coping strategies, and improve your overall mental well-being.
I encourage you to take one step at a time and chip away at it to achieve personal growth and self-improvement. It will take time, effort, and patience. Be gentle with yourself, and don’t hesitate to seek help when you need it. 
hey @user1586
it seems like you’re having a hard time expressing your thoughts and feelings effectively, which is causing a lot of frustration and affecting your relationship with others. i want to assure you that what you are feeling is valid, it can be very frustrating when you cant express your thoughts and feelings the way you want, but please know that you are not alone in feeling this way! sometimes people just have a hard time finding the right words to describe their feelings, but that doesnt make them weird, crazy or incapable of communication. most of the time, it could just be that we are better at other forms of communication, such as through acts of services, or creative forms of expression like art, music, dance, etc. just a suggestion but it could be worth exploring what type of communication feels the most comfortable for you!
as for daily conversations, i have a suggestion on helping you express yourself abit more clearly. from what you shared, it seems that you tend to speak a bit quickly without fully thinking things through when you are angry or triggered, which can affect how you phrase your words and it can lead to misunderstandings. maybe taking a moment to pause and reflect before responding could help ensure your thoughts come across the way you intend. for example when you are angry, instead of speaking right away, take a deep breath and move away from the conversation. pen down your thoughts, feelings, or whatever you want to say to that person and hold on to it for a moment until you’ve calmed down. then, you can read through what you wrote again and edit it now that you are in a clearer head space. although this process is slow, it can be effective in helping you learn how to step back from a situation and think carefully about how to express yourself effectively to get a message across.
hope this helps! learning how to communicate takes time and effort, so i hope you’ll be gentle with yourself, you are already doing great 
Hi @user1586,
It sounds like you’re going through a really tough time, and I want you to know that it’s completely valid to feel this way. It can be incredibly frustrating when your words don’t seem to convey what you truly mean and when emotions feel overwhelming. It’s normal to wrestle with these feelings and to worry about how they affect your relationships.
Recognizing that something feels off is a big step, and it shows a lot of self-awareness. Please remember that you’re not alone in this; many people struggle with similar feelings. It’s okay to take a moment to breathe and reflect before reacting, especially when emotions run high.
What are your thoughts about sharing your feelings with someone you trust? Sometimes, simply talking about what you’re experiencing can provide some relief. You deserve understanding and support as you navigate these challenges.
I dont have anyone to talk too but its honestly my fault cause i just absolutely hate the idea of telling someone my feelings. I hate having other people worry about me. So most of the time i iust talk to myself when i feel down and all. I know. Its weird.
@user1586 Hmm…wouldn’t you say that reaching out to someone on Let’s Talk would be considered as telling someone about how you are feeling?